Well Excuse You

Thank you Din for taking that horrid photo off your blog (:

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My laptop is charging so I have been reduced to the black oblivion that is the computer room to use the icky desktop.

Sigh. Yesterday Din son and I went shopping. Well.. it wasnt as we planned.. we were very cruelly deprived of the damn Depp. Stupid public holiday crowds to blame of course. We should have known. So I still have yet to see the film.. anyone interested to see it with me? (:

So anyway we went shopping around instead. Well.. sonia shopped mostly.. it was long and tiring but fun nonetheless. It's funny how a caramel frapp and an almond crossiant can get a girl to thinking.. Mmm.. After a while we started getting tired and grouchy and so we decided to leave and go back to the supposed sanctity that is home.

Oh yeah that was just brilliant. It was just fucking fantastic. I go out for a couple of hours and i come back to find my entire fucking future planned out for me..without my say. In MY life. What the fuck. It was bloody horrible. So yes I did not have a very pretty night. AND I still haven't fixed any of it yet. God.

So today was presumably better. Had Lit and then Physics practicals. Hmm.. After that I headed out to Gelare where I was forced.. yes forced.. to study with my older brother. in public. ew. It was.. well.. err.. haha.. Well.. I did some kind of studying, compared to my very incredibly unproductive week.. but it was still rather useless.. he's so bloody distracting and lazy la. At least he had money. Haha..

I'm so.. meeeaahh.. aahhh.. eeeee...tsk. oh! You know those kinds of people... who are your friends.. but aren't really that close to you? And yet they keep msging you or calling you to ask like..what's the homework.. or what time is class and shit like that? And they only ever call to ask about stuff like that?? EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.... sooo irrritating... I so superly duperly cannot stand people like that.. it's soooo super annoying laaaaaaa.. Bleah.


Wow what an awesomely randomn spiel. Ha. Dang. I am drained. I don't know.. I feel very distant nowadays.. More than often I am plunged deep in the whirlwind that is my brain, thinking about how everything turned out, how everything will turn out. And despite my open acknowledgment I still find myself clinging on to the last shreds of hope in my seemingly delusional mind. And it's just so uncalled for, especially considering the way i am being treated in all of this. And just recently with the shock of being able to see my future, or my parent's vision... Do we really expect more?

I don't believe you know me
Although you know my name
I don't believe the faults I have
Are only mine to blame