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The clock is ticking loves.



Maybe it isn't fair but I don't care(: Stupid blogger is being a fucking neanderthal and thus the photos that I have so painstakingly uploaded are potrayed to me html style. And that leaves me to depend on my html eye, which I, of course, do not possess. Haha.. So it has been a busy busy week. Tons of foolishness, annoyance, confusion and money(or lack thereof)


Monday was badminton day with the chinese sonia. Yeah, ew. Two grueling hours and a shower later, we headed out in an attempt to look for a job. Hmm.. T'was relatively fruitful. Dan the man is mean and lies to me. Coffee powder is way too ironic anyway(: WELL. Haha.. The other one dragged me to Far East to cut her hair. Uh. I spent 60 bucks on like..two tops. Oops. That was also the day I tried strange foods on a stick for the first time ever. Odd. Haha..Met the Pau for dinner after that and paid the man.


Tuesday was Ethel day! Haha.. I was super late(as always). Haha.. sorry(: We went to Plaza Sing cos..uh..uhh... I don't know. HAHA. Our plans to watch Stardust DIED. HAHA.. We even walked all the day to some place I don't know the name of to check the timings. More failure.. HAHA. So we watched Enchanted instead.. It was pretty good. Patrick Dempsey is...hot(: HAHA. No ethel, I did not JUMP ship(: After that we left the boring malls and went to City Hall. Ethel is embarrassing and was once rejected by charity. HAHAHA(: That was also the night I went back to Ballet for the first time in..ever. And it was just.... Ouch.


Wednesday was the first ever sucessful S CUBE NIGHT(: HAHA. And that stands for Scrubs, Seinfeld and something-else-which-we-forgot-and-thus-assume-it's-simpsons. Hee(: And since the shop didn't have Scrubs for some odd reason, Rae Pau and I watched Sienfeld, the Simpsons movie and Superbad. YOYOMA! Hahahaha. oh. Superbad is icky and gross but oh-so-hilarious. Spontaneous sleepovers are the best(:


Thurday... uh.. Errands day. Left Rae's place and the ungodly hour of uh..ten(HA) and ran around Singapore doing what I have to do. Heh. I even found tim to clean up my room(: And by that i mean CLEAN UP. Haha. Books have been removed and I can finally see floor.. Haha.. Oh! I also watched Stardust.. illegally of course(: Yes, after much persuasion from Jessie, I finally set aside some time to see it. It was alright. Pretty good.



Today was Shopping with a mission, which I personally abhor. Din totally died(: Haha.. Towned and stuff... Got more merchandise for Hong Kong, a new jacket and legwarmers. YAY(: I so can't wait now.. Hahaha.. Anywho, we died at starbucks TWICE, in lieu of next week. Haha.. I stole a paper cup. SHH..(: Heh. MAN DIN(:


And so tomorrow is Rae's party day and I have absolutely nothing to wear. RAHR. Oh, and did I mention that it's over?(: TEA!



chEW.


You can't deny the Depp(:


Rip-off


NO.


YO.


Rae got me a shark(:


You know, after all these years, I still lose out. In every imaginable way. I'm just.. inferior. That's just the way it is. I tried, I really really did. And it is becoming increasingly obvious to me that, I just can't. She's just..better. It isn't even a matter of me being competitive anymore, it's just. Surviving.



Hong Kong: 3 days!(:

Is there anyone out there?
Cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

Poor little not-so-rich girl

I want to live on the beach.



The sound of the waves, the sand everywhere, the refreshingly cold sea water, the smell of sun-block on my skin, the wind in my incredibly messy hair, the rocks(ATTACK!), my awesome hat, the junk food, the hanging around and of course the company(: But no, not the conferencing, hungry birds. Haha. Friday was spontanueous beach day again with free-loading Pasu and paying Din-sha(: Good times, good times.



Sunday's are great for bumming around at home. There's something incredibly inviting about a lazy sunday afternoon, especially when it rains(: And the moon is delectable at night with a couple glasses of wine(:



Hmm.. So I shall assume that if I have yet to go out with any of you, or even try to set up a date, in the next week, I'm probably never seeing you again. And let's not count obligations shall we? It's just not good enough anymore. Haha.. Oh well, that's less people to christmas shop for(:



Pictures!






































My forehead, is like HUGE.





























HAHA.


































It always ends like this(:




I'm filled to the brim with christmas cofffee(: And I mean the good black-sugary liquid kind, not the irritating annoying kind(: Hahaha. Mint coffee is abosolute sex. My dad says that there's a Starbucks in our hotel in Hong Kong! Haha, can't escape(:


I'm so damn over it.


Hong Kong: 8 Days!

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling

Careful of the rocks, they hurt.

It's that time of month again....




...The moon is out.



So I guess you're my biggest regret.
Oh well.

You give me low blood pressure

Drama farewell. God, where do I begin. Hmm.. Let's see. Well, I guess I'd have to apologise for throwing such a hissy bitch fit(: Oops. I was cranky and annoyed and it's never ever a good idea to throw wet stuff at a very irritated, very pms-y Abi. Haha.. Sigh. And even then, I guess I have to give you props(ew) Haha. It was an awesome location, and even though our general annoyance and bitchiness killed your plans, you guys really put in lots and lots of effort into it and it is now gladly appreciated(: Everybody from Joy to Gunita especially and all the rest who came. Sorrow as well for yelling at you all constantly and always. AND AND AND. We kinda figured out where the money came from, no not by magic as you claim, so really, honestly, Thank you all so much for everything. You were really thoughtful and stuff and it turned out okay(:






So it was at the Safra place thing, Sonia NA and I arrived annoyed and cranky. After a while, the party started and we spent it lamenting that it was the boring-est party ever. Then of course, the retardedly lame games came out. Haha. Tealight ceremony went alright. I said my peace, and meant it too, so don't forget. And then, naturally, Spin The Bottle, Truth or Truth style(: Funny funny((: Hahahah. I can't help but laugh.. Hee(: It slowly evolved into a heart-to-heart talk and the whole spill your secrets here and now thing. It was quite...enlightening(: Anywho, Din sonia and I stayed over, completely unprepared. And it's a relatively creepy place so Sonia had to keep me up at night with her til like 3am while Din was out like a log. Fool.


So the pictues were all gross so we're going back to last year's party.

It's interesting to think, that it was so long ago.

Well, today Buu and I hung out for a while, talked a bit. And now, I am tired, and I am confused, and I am not looking forward to the future, I'll tell you that. I am worried, I am apprehensive. And, oh my god, I am scared.




This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together

The cosmic alliances against me.

What the hell?



Today was a sad pathetic day. I stayed at home all day, cleaned my room, watched Moulin Rouge(: and uh.. yeah. But I am proud to say that today was the first such day since the end of Os.. That's quite okay. Ha. Ha ha ha. Oh. I am so in denial. HAHA. My week looks sad and bleak, someone come for me and take me on a date!): Haha. Well the Drama farewell's tomorrow. Honestly, If it sucks, I will leave and never come back. And I'm serious. HAHAHA.. Oh my! Anne and I.. well no, mostly ANNE, thought it would be funny if we went as Jocks. like. NO. Hahaha.. no.. DRAMATISED posuer jocks(: still.. NO. all jocks are gross.





So yesterday, Rae and I ran to the beach for an impromtu beachy day. We had a little switch up and she brought the spread, and I, the bread. And we foolishly forgot that it was a sunday, so basically it was overrun with kids. Haha.. Damn. Plus, people were in our spot, so we had to downgrade..SEE. Year of the downgrade. Tsk tsk. Haha. Damn. Our fun was shortlived when we had to up and leave when we saw the beginning of a thunderstorm. Haha.. I was the midst evening out my tan when thunder rumbled.. and so i am now tan-ner in the front. HAHA. And because of that, I am now grey. HAHA. It was totally worth it. Anywho, we packed up and seeked shelter under the coffee bean umbrella. ella ella. eh eh. HAHAHA. And just like that, we spent like an hour talking lyrics. And by that I mean, take a corny song, and just SAY the lyrics in a serious, sombre tone. IT's really funnY! HAHAH.. the best are eminem songs.



Just lose it. Ah ah ah ah ah.
Go crazy. Ah ah ah ah ah.
Oh baby. Ah ah ah ah ah.
Just lose it. Ah ah ah ah ah.



HAHAHAHAH. Yes. And now rae and grabbed my heart and ran away with it to Australia!): FOOL! Haha. she owes me a shark. Oh wait. I started a Facebook account just now out of sheer boredom. I have next to no idea how to operate it and it confuses me. Sonia laughed at me for jumping on the bandwagon. Haha.. yeah, I'm pretty ashamed. And yet, I can't stop.. It's so strange.. Haha.. oh.

Random pictures?

Yay(: More details will be provided in time

























Oh. I just...oh.
















Everything's always such a blur




















NO.














The morning-after looks better when you can't see it






















































Because you can't beat tradition, no matter how hard you try.















The cold, dark stab of jealousy, in both instances. I'm really starting to believe that I got the short end of the deal. Since when did evil get a heads up over relatively less evil? ? Since when did I care about the both of them? Fuck. It's just not right. My mind had been wrought with confusion and worry that I am indeed slipping into the dark spirals of my dumbfuck infatuations....Mmm.. I shall content myself that it's just a simple case of wanting what I absolutely cannot have, in both cases.



Sure.


And don't bother,
I'll be fine, but she's waiting
The ring you gave to her will lose its shine
So don't bother, be unkind.

Were you jealous?

Honestly, I can be so fucking stupid.


Well obviously it was grad night yesterday. After all that hype and shit, we all got so sick of it and just wanted to get it over and done with. The school's a motherfucking bitch. Firstly, the incredibly disorganised Primary school gathering, the lies that dress pants were accepted, the fucktard lack of air-conditioning, the incredible (lack of) decorations and of course the boring as hell ceremony. Oh. I went in my big Foof. Initially, when I left my house in my hundred dollar shoes, I was fearing that I might be too formal, and when I arrived in school... Well.. Hmm. HAHA.. It was quite a show actually.. Tons of people were so damn dressed up, professional make-up, dolled up hair and glitter and what not. Oh. I gave up caring after a while, and Thank goodnesss too, co sit really would just have melted in the retarded heat. Oh, and the fans KILLED my hair. Fuck it.



So, being the incredibly cranky fool that I was, Ashrina and I spent the whole time complaining and criticising people. HAHA. I sat through the whole crap to go up on stage for like, seven seconds. Anywho, after they finally released us, we stomped off to do the usual cam whoring stuff. Hmm.. Yeah, I know I was being an asshole. So.


The party itself was fuck awesome. There were two live bands and they did cover songs. And it wasn't too bad, well, it hardly ever is with this bunch right? Haha.. The lighting and stuff was pretty alright and there was a smoke machine to create an aura..of coolness. HAHAHA. Ew. We were just partying and dancing and jumping away like we owned the place. Hee. Yeah, it got pretty gross after a while. Sweat soaked hair stuck to our faces, blister-infested feet, bad faces, tantrums thrown, screaming songs, laughing and just enoying ourselves. I was still being an asshole, or trying anyway. Hee. I honestly thought I didn't give a fuck. HAHA. Anywho, after a while, Rae sonia and I created our own party and danced while the boring prom queen thing was going on. T'was hilarious(: Haha. It must have been quite a sight, we tried to form a fake ass grind-line(Im guessing this sounds odd) while random jocks shook their heads at us. HAHAHA. We're such fucktards and I love it(:



Haha. So eventually we had to leave and head to our hotel, Pan Pacific. Flipping jocks left their stuff in sonia's bag. Idiots. So we got to the hotel, crashed, burned, and died. Absolutely DIED. And so here I am now, feeling very very disoriented, cranky, and incredibly vulnerable. Think we've all learnt our lesson and the amount at the Abnia party will be greatly reduced. Trust me it's for the best. Haha.



Pictures!










Doesn't everyone just look stunning? Haha




















Purple Pau!(:



















Din-sha! Excuse me you, you weren't even in white! FOOL! HAHA















Haha. Grab and Go!















Hehe. Pau got cranky(:
















Oops(:

AAAWWWWW(:

E-DOD

Rah oh Rah

Hahaha. I look like I'm nursing a cold!

I'm barely even in this! And I look strangely yellow.




















Oh dear me.














EW EW EW. NO ONE looks good. HAHAHAH. Post-party. we were this tired.

















oh. I hate flash





















The morning after.


I never knew I felt that way, and it's scaring the fuck out of me.



This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

Don't know why I still care

I'm gonna miss you like a child misses her blanket,

But I've gotta get a move on with my life

Coffee Kills, Bitch

Joy. You are a failure.


Hahaha.. Teddy bear attempts are futile(: So anywhos, days are going by post-Os quicker than I thought.. Finally everyone is officially free from the evil wrath that is exams and life has resumed to the hectic shopping and coffee days. HEE(:


Hmm.. So Monday was hanging out with Din and all her special friends(: HAhaha.. Men in white? OH! Hahaha.. Starbucks is fab at night, Coffee.. not so much. Hahaha.


Tuesday, which was yesterday, was potentially the most embarrassing day of my life, and trust me, I had many. HAHa. First off, Ethel and I tried to be cool by appearing for Grad Night rehearsals sans School uniform. Yes, we came in our going out clothes. And after realising that noone, and I repeat, NO ONE else was not in school U, We freaked out and died. And after about twenty minutes of freaking out and apprehensiom, we, for some strange reason, mustered the courage to walk into the school hall. And..well.. we all saw what happened.. Everyone, and just to be clear, EVERYONE turned and stared at us and luaghed and made faces and judged. HAHAHA.. We were trying desperately to hide our faces and Mr Hamzah totally made it worse! Do i LOOK like I'm from China? HAHAHAHA...


So I got into other random trouble as well(Should have sen my face when the dude came up to me and yanked me out) regarding some incriminating photo I have never seen. Anywho, Joseph saw us and DIED and sent us home. HA. So I went to school for nothing. And of course our dearest Ethel left her bag in the hall so we had to wait in the hot hot heat for the damn rehearsal to end. Haha. We died and went out to get ice-cream(: HA!


So after this whole big sweaty fuss, Pau Sonia and I went to do our hair. Haha.. Yeah you have to wait til Friday to see it. Pau's purple! So anyway, Rah Din Pau and I went to Laguna for a post-Os Feast. Totally awesome. Truth or Dare with this bunch? HEE(:Ha. oh. Just for the record, my parents HATE my hair, like with a passion. Obviously they have something against having a side swept thing. Likened me to my brother. Like.. That's some fucking insult I tells ya. And I know I'm gonna be taking shit for it forever, just you watch. They're fucktards who think that I will turn out like my brother because of my hair. Which by the way does NOT resemble his at ALL. Just thinking about it is fucking pissing me off. Oh and by the way, I love my new hair. So THERE.


Ha. I collected my skirt today. And finally pieced my grad night outfit together. Frankly, I'm getting sick of it all. It's getting me in a lot of trouble and causing me tons of fuss. I heart heart heart my shoes.. Haha. Aldo pulled through after all!Haha. so again you have to wait til Friday(:


Oh... Just a sneak peek(:





























Ew Rae..EW

















Uh? I'm the third one, can you tell?















New hair. New bag. Same face(:





















Haha. Totally random. But yummy(:


I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes I'd take you away

I KNOW it's not enough

If something was broken,

Would you fix it,

Or throw it away?

Cause the world will turn if you're ready or not (:

It's always too little too late

I guess I'll be blogging a lot more from now on.



I realise that I haven't really done much shopping.. just a lot of frowning and calculating and wanting. HAHA. No, not enjoying having limited cash. Today I actually thought of getting a job, which is really the last thing I wanna do. Mostly cos I'm a lazy fart really. Haha.. I really hope Hong Kong has good stuff. Everything goes on my Daddy's credit card. HEE(:



Haha. If you haven't already heard, they didn't have the smexy red heels in my size at Aldo. The ones that I wanted for Grad Night. Fuck these tiny feet. I was this close to them... *WHINES ): Hahaha. you should have totally seen how my face fell when they told me it wasn't available in my size.. haha, I would have paid to see that. So now I'm scouting for a new pair of red pointy pumps. Dragged my whole family out to Town just now just for me. Of course(: Hahaha. It was quite funny. I almost got a pair of Nine Wests. ALMOST(: HAHAHA.. Oh wells. Thank Goodness for Guess(: I'm heading down to Raffles tomorrow to get them in my size. See! People are always complaing about having big feet and they don't realise that small feet are just as inconvinient! Hahah.. I feel like such a bimbo(:




Yesterday, Pau was rejected by society so I took pity on her and we went swimming(: HEE. It was.. futile. We had to use the kinda-deep-yet-not-quite pool cos well.. I can't really swim. Hahah. And because it was just overflooded with kids, we spent about a pathetic 45 minutes floating around and sometimes standing, only to leave cos it was freezing. We saw a rainbow though! Like an actual one! Then we headed to Starbucks and not studied! HAHAHA(: Talked and talked and suddenly it was ten.. Pau had two cups of coffee. Haha.. Guess you learn something new everyday(:



My life is so boring now.




































Mango














Zara






















Can't wait(:





















So last night I lay in bed, filled with comtempt and caffiene. Thinking about everything, about the year, about my failures, my ignorance, about you and about me. And I realised, if I could, I would. I would take it all back, everything I ever said, everything you ever said and every little fucking thing in between. And I would take it, and put it in a special little box. And then, I would throw it so fucking far away that it would never ever cross my mind again(:



Fuck obligations.



Thunder only happens when its raining
Players only love you when theyre playing
Women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean.. you'll know