I <3 Depp

Hey ho (:


So the past few days have been going pretty well.. Mmmm... Johnny Depp.... Sigh. (:



Right. So Chinese O levels really didn't go too well.. Actually that's a complete understatment. It was HORRIBLE. It was mean and evil and OVER. And thank god for that. It was really bad. I foresee a horrible failing grade and the decision to go through the grueling preparation process again. Fuck. Unless of course Oral saves me.. HAHAHAHA.. yeah.. that IS funny..


Moving right along... Johnny Depp... Mmmmmm.... He's sooooo hoooooottt!! :)))) Jessie lent me the second movie so that I can see the third one and understand it.. Thanks Jessie! SoI basically spent the last few days holed up in my room watching the Depp. Good times good times.. Haha.. Yummy.. So who wants to see Pirates 3 with me? (:

One word. Hot.





And moving right along.. After A Maths this morning, my plan to go to the Library to do some form of self improvement failed miserably.. So left at home with nothing to do, my mom offered the notion of shopping! Haha.. she was headed off to town and asked if I wanted to be dropped off at some mall for a couple of hours while she finished up her work.. and with the rampant sales going on.. I was ready in ten mintues! HAHA.. Too funny. It wasn't even town PER SAY.. it was more like..somerset. HAHA.. Centrepoint. Actually.. the place got quite a facelift! OH! Before I left my dad gave me $50 and told me not to spend it.. So why give me money? oh and guess what?




I spent it.




(: HAHA.. what can I say? I got the first Pirates vcd, Breakfast at Tiffany's, I hit the Mango sale.. and even had ice cream(mm...coffee) All in a matter of 2 hours. Then my mom was done so we headed to Fish and Co for lunch.. oh! I wanted to get shooeess.. but they didnt have my size.. EEEEEEEEEEEEE... hahah.. yeah




OH OH OH! Yesterday... when i was supposed to be studying.. I was shopping online.. well window shopping.. and I caught the Chanel fashion show for spring/summer '07 on HYoutube.. and it is brilliant. Haha.. yeah it's really really really good... you should go see it.. Everything about it is just so sleek and chic.. and granted I'm not the biggest fan of such upscale brands but I really like this collection by Karl Lagerfeld. I hope I spelt that right. Wait, I have the link..



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cn8KRrCXd4c&mode=related&search



There are like three parts to the same show.. It's really worth the watch.. it's very pretty..

Uh.. This is such a random post. haha.. I haven't done anything productive all week. I even cancelled tuition today! haha.. and my back has been aching really bad lately cos of the endless hours of mugging i have been put through in preparation of all the exams.. AND I'm like..so broke. The stupid sales are calling my name and not only don't i have time.. I don't have the money! ah! ):




Baby, my heart's on fire!

Some rage for the road?

I. Am. Exhausted.


Granted I am not a huge fan of chinese, but I really really hate it when people call chinese cheena. It's just so...gross. It irks me beyond belief. It's so incredibly irritating, unpoetic and just plain dumb. Sometimes it's even insulting. Chinese is chinese. How difficult is that?!



...Yeah.. I've been having way too much tuition.


Chinese 'O's: 1 more day

Wish me luck. God knows, I need it.

But I'm wondering where I'm gone

Can't find the truth within my song

Withdrawal Syndromes

Hey there.

Mmm.. I just finished reading Message in a bottle. Hmm.. It was kinda boring at first but it steadily got more appealing and enticing.. slowly..very slowly.. yeah.. It was okay.


Yestarday was an odd day. We finished the last day of chinese drills.. and although I was elated, I now realise that.. I'm on my own from here on in.. That's really scary.. I mean sure I have tuition but.. it stil boils down to me and my dilligence, or lack of it should i say..

Hmm.. then we had classroom cleaning, which was virtually useless so after an odd game of stress and getting sticky in the humidity of the stuffy classroom, I sat at the doorway next to the sleeping cheong and read the book whilst enjoying the brilliant breeze. Then off to the hall where we once again had to endure the heat an stuffiness of about 400 people breathing the same air. Uh huh.

Met Pau and Sonia at around 4.30 for dinner at Thai Express so we didn't need to go for supper. Then off to DBS Arts Centre to catch Macbeth, not before the ever-careless pau broke her shoe. Waited for her mom to come by before taking a cab to the place. We were rather late and the place was kinda small. Hmm.. Macbeth was... kinda really boring. Yeah.. disappointing, I thought it would have really enticed me, but I guesss not. Someone fell asleep (: and some other idiots were speaking in geography. In fact, at some point through the play, I found myself trying to get the candle flame on stage to jump a la cheong, instead of listening to what was going on. Oops(:

After the ordeal, we headed to starbucks for supper.. haha,. yeah so much for the dinner thing.. Sat around and ate, pau and sonia had coffee while I had tea.. Uh huh. Hung around a while before heading off to our respective homes.. haha.. Yeah it was quite a fun day. I wish I could have enjoyed it more instead of finding myself thinking of other things.. Bleah. Heh... But yeah. It was fun! We were just being the morons we were.. no surprise.. haha

Hmm.. so that was my day. Today was horrid. The weather was killer. In fact, I just got off the phone with sonia p. We had like a 50 minute conversation and I can barely recall a single thing because I was just so agitated by the shear humidity of the air in Singapore. I'll pout if i want to! *pouts* Haha.. But really, Sonia.. I was so not listening to you go on and on about poly and stuff.. OOPS(: I think you could tell that i was kinda distant right? Sorry la.. I was just.. hot. yeaps.. haha

There are so many things that i want to say..but I don't think I will.. I'm so tired. And hot. And.. confused..


Oh what I wouldn't do for a nice tall glass of coffee..


..I mean tea .



I want to walk with you on a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come?

Shall we move on?

Oh wow. I really do apologise for the previous entry. I really shouldn't be allowed anywhere near civilisation when I'm angry. It's not a pleasant experience, for anyone. And I suddenly realise that so many more people read my blog than I thought.haha.. Damn.


So anyway, these past few days have basically been drowned in my never-ending thoughts which has been causing me to be rather irrational and distraught. but then again what's new really.. with the addition of three hours of chinese everyday too.. The most worrying part is I'm still not too caught up in the heat of the Os.. which.. god forbid, is next week. Yeah. Well.. to be honest I really doubt I'd be able to clear it anyway.. My foundation is still superly weak and although I haven't given up quite yet, I foresee the inevitable happening.


And of course there's the whole Mid-year results factor, which I'm sure you're all sick to death of.. Well too bad (: HA. Worrying worrying worrying. Pasu says I'm so panicky(in general) and yeah she's right. I can't relax about anything.. I just have major freak outs and die, then emerge much later to realise that the situation isn't as bad as i thought. most times. not all. YEAH! It's not particularly healthy! I n fact, its kinda bad. haha..


Sigh. I don't know. Maybe I just really really need sleep.




Yeah. Let's go with that

I miss the way it used to be way back when.

Stifling My Screams

FUCK.



For ChrisT's sake, someone help me.


I personally think results are a fuckload of shit, don't you? I think they are the absolute most unnecesary thing on the face of the earth.. Gathered in the hall today to get our results back. And the best part is I wasn't even worried. At all. All fucking week I was worrying about some stupid shit that I now realise is just such a waste of my bloody time. I can't even appreciate the damn irony of it all, that i was worried for nothing, or for what I think is nothing.

Don't even get me started on the actual results. FUCK. I haven't done this bad in a long ass time. Granted I didn't fail anything (yet?) but it's still bad. Not a single fucking distinction. AND AND AND dammit. People keep doing better than me. that..THAT I really can't stand if its stupid people who claim they didn't know what was going on in the paper and didn't study and all that fucking shit. SPARE ME. These are the kind of things that push me over the edge, these inconsiderate, arrogant, and dare I say.. UNDESERVING people.



You damn fucking straight, I'm bitter.



I feel very much like lodging a fucking potato at your fucking head and hurting you so bad you DIE. OR I hope you die a slow, menticulous death, no, not because you beat me, NO.. but because all I've ever heard from you is you lying about how worried you bloody are about the whole damn thing, esp that subject.. and then, ever so miraculously, you do so fucking well. AND to pretend you give a rat's ass about how I feel.. Jesus, how dumb do you really think I am? In fact, it's not even just one bloody subject. it's every flipping thing!


RRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.



ok I really needed to get that off my chest. No, do not ever EVER ask me about this ever, for fear of aggravating my stifled screams.

Although I must say, it's days like these that I thank the lord for wonderful people like buu, who is truely awesomely awesome. Knowing that I was in a horrible mood, she ran out after school and bought me the coke that she kinda 'owed' me. Yup, all 1.5 LITRES of it. HAHA (: So then we sat around in class feasting and drowning our sorrows in coke, nuts and chocolate.

Sigh. I think the world has gone mad. Like, seriously. Everything in my world seems to be topsy turvey, like, nothing makes sense anymore, nothing fits. And I don't get it! I can't understand. It's everything, not just this or that. And it's not pleasant. Maybe we should all just keel over and die, yeah.

That'd be a sight.

'O' levels: 9 more days

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive.

I can't keep up, and I can't back down, I've been losing too much time.

Beach Bitch

There's homework that I should be doing now. HA. Well.. you know.



DAMN. So it has been a rather horrid week. Of course there was the brilliant beach day on tuesday but things started spiralling downhill from there, no? mm.. I miss the stupid beach. I love sentosa. sigh. Let's see.. we started off with chem practicals. WOW. marking day HOLIDAY, I see mrs boo didnt get the memo. uh huh. it was horrid. Ethel is the ULTIMATE lab partner. she's brilliant man. Let's see.. instead of listening to important instructions, we discussed shoes! and everytime we threw an experiment away, we would realise we needed it for the next part. AND.. her reactions exploded..AND her test tube holder caught fire. brilliant. uh huh.



So sonia and I had this brilliant plan for leaving early and after we did.. we realised that we left something of relative importance behind. yup. we forgot cheong. HAHA.. hmm.. so we had to wait for her to get out so leaving early and lying was pretty useless. Cabbed all the way to vivo cos someone was feeling rich, and it wasn't me. yeah. We took a while to change actually cos sonia was being a moron and had a hole too big in her shirt. i wore my pretty shorts and a white top .. not the best idea. mm... anyway then we took the bus to sentosa and too a tram to the awesomely awesome beach. it was sooo super clean! AND it had stopped raining (: yay. it was fuunn.. i wore my white and black bikini, sonia wore her old one and cheong wore a shirt. surprise surprise. haha..





ANYWAY... we ate sonia's cake, cheong's potato salad and my chicken. HAHA.. it was good food.. after a while of frolicing in the water and attempted naps.. they dagged me off the beach. yes. OFF the beach. WHAT?! I can't understand. haha... we took the tram to er..er.. oh yeah. the dragon trail. wow. it was erm,... interesting? HA. let's leave it at that. haha.. headed to underwater world to stare at the pretty (and freeeee) sting rays and turtles.. they were soooooooooooo preeeeeetttttttttttttttttyyyyy... i got a mosquito bite. ): After a while of mindless staring we left to Ben and Jerry's and talked and talked.. Moved over to the beach and sat on siloso (: questions questions questions. Before long it was the end of a gorgeous day and we headed out of sentosa.








At Vivo, sonia and i put some shorts on and walked around a little. Bumped into ethel and co. and later, jocks. wow. Everyone, and i mean EVERYONE, was eyeing us wearily cos we weren't exactly in our sunday's best. so much so that I wanted to wear a fucking sign over our heads that said "We just came from the beach, YOU fuck off." But alas, I settled with the usual eye-rolls and bitch faces. Saw Ivana on the train back. Haha.. kay that's random. Sonia and I had a long quiet ride home.






TODAY. chew and I lunched at Gelare at siglap. mm.. waffles (: We talked and revealed and solved and frowned and raised-eyebrows and laughed and squealed and argued and ate. And now I'm feeling better actually. hmm.. The wonders of a waffle, an apple crumble and fond memories.





Oops. I'm starting to seriously abhor chinese.



So who wants to see pictures? (:




















Eee-yeerrr. It's sooooonniaa in her aviators and me in my boring white pair.






















































HAHA.. cheong in my new brown pair of shades and her towel which is. orange. Actually this is a pretty good picture.











































OH! er..er...er.. hi?




















































There was a lot of this all day. haha

HAHAHA.. you look stoops (:








































The tram takes like FOREVER to come..... DADDY?!












































Dragged through the dragon trail for this. uh huh.
























































And ended the day..with this.








































I've got tonnes more but I'm so superly duperly lazy now lah. Aw too bad :) HAHA.. I can't believe I have homework to doooo.. and sooo muuuuccccchhhhh... fuck la. oh! We're getting our results tomorrow. oh yeah.. this is turning out to be a great week.

Hmm.. I miss drama.

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream

Did I say that out loud?

ER.

erm.. hmm.. umm.. mmm.. heh. but.. I.. erm.. you..


FUCK.

Sweet Renvenge

The ball's in your court. I've got MORE where these come from (:
























*edit*

So SONIA.. which do you prefer??

THIS?












or..

THIS one?






Or hey.. maybe even

THIS ONE?!

















OR.. my PERSONAL FAVOURITE..








AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!








Sweet sweet revenge (:



I wanna breathe that fire again

Midsummer's nightmare

Are you sure it's over?

Haha.. i got up today feeling horrible. But let's get to that later...


Yesterday was the last day of hell. YET NOT QUITE. Chinese Os are fucking my life up.. We've got these horrid chinses drils from now on.. fifteen hours of chinese a week on top of my normal six hours of tuition man. what the fuck. I better pass. Also I;m gonna have to pass up great oppurtunities cos of it. Fuck.



ANYWAY.. after the intense horror of Phy/Chem MCQ, which I mostly guessed.. And of course Chinese listening(yeah..wow.) I rushed off to meet jooooooyyyyyy. haha.. ETHEL HAD TUITION! HAHA.. ass. i had to pick joy up and she was wearing a skirt.. you're right lamethel, joy has sexylegs.. Haha (: We went to parkway cos I had to leave early.. ate at Pastamania and then we walked around a bit. But we got bored so we went to Giant where I had to buy chicken. erm.. yeah. HAHA.. I bought a slab of chicken for the picnic.. and I wouldn't stop prodding at it cos it was soft and bouncy! HAHA.. yeaps. then we sat around at starbucks listening to music til her friend came to pick her up (again) to go to KBOX. ERRRRR... right. HAHA.. I bought this awesomely awesome note pad which says MOOD ALERT! and has got a whole bunch of questions like.. TODAY MY DAY WAS.. and then some great answers like 'horrendous' and 'oy vey' that you'd tick. Haha.. let's see what i said..

TODAY MY DAY WAS: Stellar

I FEEL LIKE: Snuggling(with who?), Pitching a fit and Rethinking life
TONIGHT I NEED A: Drink(of coffee), Break, Miracle<>

IF YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR YOU: Compliment me, Shut up, Listen, Hold me close

TOMORROW I HOPE TO: Be vindicated

HAHA.. how randomn. (: After that I went home and got the food ready and went off to meet sonia at doby gaut. I had to take the damn train myself. I wore my shorts with a green top.. and I had a coffee craving so despite the immense heat, i stopped over for a mocha at starbucks.. then i stood and waited for sonia to come.



So i waited.. and waited.. and waited... and waited..

til finally half an hour later she pulls up in her dad's car and i hop in so he can send us to the park.. we got there early so we got GREAT seats.. like right up front. Sonia and i took up as much space as the group of 7 adults near us. HAHA.. we had a huge mat. so we pulled out our food and stuff, i brought baked chicken (succeess!) soup, ONE roll of bread, popcorn and a tiramisu. HA. Sonia brought potato, japanese chicken, oranges, beer andsweets. and so we feasted. We had a delectable spread! It was brill.

HAHA.. funny thing happened. After a while, I decided to scratch my mosquito patch(yes scratch) and i realised that i was SITTING IN COFFEE!(Yes pasu.) HAHA.. apparently my cup of mocha spilt all over and i was just covered in coffee leg down..and i didnt even feel it! HAHA.. it was horrible.. like it took us forever to clear it.. and so i was sticky all night. I still don't even know how I was sitting in coffee.. haha.. Then.. i got pekkish during theshow during the show so we opened the can of carlsberg.. and despite sonia's warning not to spill it,. i dropped it. HAHAHA... SMART.. I had to slurp it up cos it got frosty. HAHA.. AND THEN.. during the break I got a can of coke.. and sonia toppled it. HAHAHAH.. We are NOT very picnic-oriented.


The show was brilliant. It wasn't as romantic as I thought it would be. And thank god. They really played up the comedy and i thought it was great.. perfect for a couple of friends getting together to relax and let loose. I recommand. AND I understood the language! YAY MACBETH! HAHA.. yeah... thank god i asked sonia to tell me the story befor hand of I probably would have been confused. But otherwise it was really quite good. haha. we were like super close to the action, which was happening all around. FUN.





OH YEAH! I forgot. Sonia got her braces off. She thinks she;s so damn cool now. But she forgets. I'm not obliged to listen to her anymore.



Today my tuition got cancelled so sonia p. and i went to town after ballet. I had to go over to her place first cos chands and her were not done baking their cake. then we took a cab to bugis and bought..nothing. HAHA.. then we went to wisma and ate at the food court cos we were getting hungry and cranky. We had this rather large portion of ice kachang and polished it off! And of course.. we spoke of the inevitable. Bleah. Then we walked over to Tangs and both got a pair of shades. I actually needed to get a bikini bottom but it was rather expensive so I guess not. OH! And I bought a lemon tart back. Mmmm... I think i'll eat it later. Yes. I am happy. I am



PICTURES?!

Braceless sonia and bespectacled me! I accidentally deleted a before shot so too bad.

Our foooooood. see the candle? chicken potato, tiramisu popcorn and soup. and bread.

The aftermath.




















We were bored.





















This is MY artsy photo..

























THIS... is sonia's.


































There were these much people!



















My mum was taking forever to come so sonia;s parents made her stand and wait with me. AWW... and i thank you with this horrid photo of us.

And this is what i wore. Oh my. How am I gonna pack my room tomorrow?

Yeap.. oh wait! Before I forget...



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THIS.






















HAHAHAHA.. Well actually it's tomorrow.. or is it the fifteenth?! HAHA.. Yes hello my signal fire (: HAHAHAHA... I have a hilarious gift in mind.. yes yes. I like love me too (:




Trust me it'd scare you,
If you knew what was going on in my brain.

pre-post midyears

Oh do excuse my prolonged absence.

Haha.. the exams are ALMOST over. ONE MORE DAY. ONE MORE DAY. These exams have been hell on me. they are MEAN. HA. all the papers have been tough. even english. I think so far the worst has got to be today;s a maths. SIGH. followed closely by e maths 2 and then.. CHINESE! HA. I can;t believe I fucked my Prelims up. it's like.. bye bye ACJC. ): SIGH.

I admit. I gave up too soon. I just gave up. It was just too much. I haven't been that focused and concentrated this time anyway. and giving up made it worse. OH WELL. no point dwelling on it.. i might develope a perpetual frown! OH! haha... anyway there's still phy/chem mcq and chinese listening tomorrow, but im as good as gone, as you can tell by me actually blogging.. haha.. sigh.

After school, ethel joy and i are going to parkway to catch up and shop a little (: AND THEN sonia and I are going for a pleasant picnic at fort canning and we're gonna watch a midsummer's night dream! YAY! I can't wait. I hope it doesn't rain.. PLEASE?! HAHA.. I can't wait to wear my new shorts.. I got a pair of beyond gorgeous high-waisted shorts at topshop and I can't wait to wear them.. hmm.. I think we should get planning on what to bring and what not.

OH! OH! OH! Pasu cheong and i are going to the beach next tuesday (: YAAAAAAAAAAAAYY!! Well.. that is.. if cheong can come. but either way i can;t wait! i miss the beeeaach! SCRAP TRADITION! we're going to sentosa and my god i hope it doesnt rain then either. but yeah, I really really need to take a break and the beach is the only way to go. I need to get a new pair of sunglasses. HMM...

So anyway,. the past few days have basically been nothing but this..

Joy luck joy luck beach! joy luck maths maths beach! maths beach! maths history history shorts! history park! history maths beach!! maths beach lover's pack!! beach! beach! beach!

And right now? BEACH!

HAHAHA.. I'm THAT worn out. really. it's pretty bad. Im wound up pretty tight. and it's not pretty! haha.. i'm not too sure but i think im supposed to be studying now. HMM.. HAHAHA.. dang.


It's not always rainbows and butterflies