Shouldn't we be studying?!
Damn it. Are we really? This is getting pretty useless. I can't focus, I can't concentrate, I can't do ANYTHING properly.. All i can think of is..er... RRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH. I just want to die. I just want my thoughts to die. I just want you to die. i HATE this.
So I've been blog hopping and am wondering why everyone seems to be trying to relive their primary school days. It's interesting how people release stress huh. By trying to go back to the old times where it was simpler and happier. Wow. it's really too bad we can't. There are so many things I would like to change. Like maybe my attitude. my posture definately. Funny how i cant seem to think of anything else. I guess I learnt something from everything. I do wish I can fast forward though... to AFTER the Os.. when I dont look perpetually(sp) tired or worried, when I no longer have to retain any form of educational facts and when I no longer have to go to school.
I was having a bad day today. It was a long hard day. Sounds dumb but i can't talk about it. Hmm.. My mood swings are not pretty. I'm really starting to think that my prediction will come true. that after the fucking Os i'd realise that i no longer have any friends, and no it doesn't sound really far fetched because i AM seeing it happen to people who WERE once my friends too.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just seriously stressed. Funny thing is I'm stressed that I'm NOT stressed about my mid-years. get it? Like.. i STILL don' feel the heat. and Im taking a Prelim paper too. RAH. And i still CAN'T FOCUS. I'm trying.. but i'm not as effecient as last year. AND no matter how hard i try.. i can't stop thinking about other non-related stuff that seems to be obviously plaguing me. ha. as in, apparently it's pretty obvious that im tired/stressed/wrought with thought.. even my tuition teacher asked if I was ok.
I guess I'm done here. I'll see YOU after the exams. In the meantime, study hard loves.
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say shes about to run away and never come back.
Friday, April 27, 2007
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
DRAMAGOLDDRAMA
GOLD!
Yes dearies.. it's a fucking GOLD! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! WE DID IT!!! :DD
HAHAHA.. The results came at the most unglamarous of times.. TWELVE O CLOCK LAST NIGHT! WHAT THE FUCK! HAHAHAHA.. ms kang msged din and buu and rae at like 12.(Which means she had the results this WHOLE TIME.) haha.. i was fast asleep.. then buu called me.. and I KNEW it was the results.. BUT I DIDNT PICK UP! TWICE! HAHAHA.. i thought it was a fucking dream, bcoz iHAVE been dreaming of that happening.. haha.. then din callled and i got so annoyed i picked up...
"hello?"
"Bi.. are you sleeping?"
"yeah...(DAWNS)..WHAT?!"
"we got a gold"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA... then we just laughed and screamed for like.. 10 mins. haha.. then i called ANNE.. who even more fantastically.. I didn't even have to say hello! she just picked up and went..
"IM NOT READY IM NOT READY IM NOT READY"
"anne..anne..ANNE! SHUT UP. WE GOT*pause* A FUCKING GOLD"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!"
HAHAHAAH...THAT went on for like..15 mins. :) HAHA.. then i called buu.. cos i like forgot that she called me.. sry buu :) HAHA
"Hello abu?"
"yes?"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!"
"HAHAHA"
HAHAHAHAHA.. oh my god! I CRIED! I LAUGHED SOOO HARD I CRIED OKAY! PROBLEM?! hahaha.. :)
then after a while.. ETHEL CALLS.. and so i put buu on hold..
"Hello abigail?"
"ethel?"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"
HAHAHAHA... we laughed SO HARD that i forgot that buu was on the other line and she hung up on me!! HAHAH.. it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUUUUUUNNNNNN!!
Then i called joy and.. er... i think you get the picture... HAHAHA :))
SO imagine this. 10 to 15 girls sitting in their own homes, by themselves, SCREAMING AND LAUGHING AND JUMPING AROUND and in some cases CRYING... ALONE! HOW UNGLAM!! HAHAHA... oh my god. it was BRILIIANT! it was FANTASTIC! WHOOT! hahaha.. thanks buu and din for calling me FIRST :)) I LURRRRVVEEE YOUUU! HAHA..
wow. i wonder if all that made sense.. HAHAHA... i swear i will NEVER forget that night. after a while i called buu back again and decided to leave my room to go downstairs to get food cos i was hungry.. at one in the morning yes. HAHA.. and then.. my dad yelled at me for still being awake. while i was on the phone. HAHA.. ooops. Buu laughed at me. it was mean :( HAHA.. i had a couple of chips while we laughed and talked.. and then went to bed at one thirty.
Yesterday was actually one of the WORSE DAYS OF MY MONTH! HA. first of all.. we ALL knew the results were coming in that day so NO ONE could focus. AT ALL. and the stupid pfa office was being useless by giving us useless information. like how it was initially gonna come by a phonecall..then that became a post.. then a fax.. then a post again. and then an E MAIL.. ASSHOLES. I myself went to check with them FOUR times ALL DAY. HAHA.. During history, we had a free period and i couldnt even study. i just DIED. and then SS.. usual shit. i kept waiting for din to come with the results so everytime someone walked by i'd jerk up to check, but alas, nothing. Then recess.. god. we were all so FUSTRATED that anne even FORGOT to pay for her food. Hhaha.. then three periods of bio and i didnt do ANYTHING. it was BAD! i couldnt concentrate so i slept. WOW. haha.. then chinese class..er..yeah. after school we had physics which wasnt too bad.. then sonia and i dragged cheong to Gelare with us to erm.. study. HA. then cheong left and sonia and i had a Looooonng intense talk about EVERYTHING and how stressed we were and what not and the results and shit and that made me feel like fuck. and when we found out choir's results.. i was gonna snap RIGHT THERE. so i had ice cream for dinner. and then my tummy felt BAD.. you know that bad feeling? so i felt horrid all day. until that night :) HAHAHA.. that made my day BEAUTIFUL! :))
Today was brilliant, it was FANTASTIC, it was awesome exceptional perfect excellent fabulous ace superb terrific wonderful amazing smashing swell marvalous magnificant divine swell stupendous sensational. In a word? it was GOLD. :)
HAHAHA.. yaay. i hadnt been in such a good mood in erm. EVER. hahaha..i came to school and SCREAMED and HUGGED EVERYBODY! hahaha.. i was greeted with sonia and a whole group of drama girls crowding around. haha.. mrs joseph even saw and closed one eye and went on to yell at someone else.. HAHA.. coolness! then Anne caught me smiling to myself.. again and again. Then when they asked us to stand up, sonia anne and i cheered for oursleves! HAHA.. we had chem..NO TEST! none of us studied anyway.. HAHA.. and then we had e maths.. i fell asleep! hAHAHA.. i was really very tired i mean.. the results came in LATE.haha.. blah blah blah.. school was pretty normal..i was..of course.. in a GREAT mood and so i laughed. A LOT. During English, we didt even do ANY WORK. we were supposed to do group work and shit but we er.. didnt.. haha.. we all started throwing things at each other and what not and caused a HUGE commotion. HAHA.. oops :)
HAHA.. I'm so happy :) I'm delirious with joy. NOTHING can destroy my day. no. not even how gross and tired i look, not even when ppl stole hugs from me, not even when i got attacked by people all around me, not even when i did NOTHING during bio, not even when i had to go for tuition, not even when i think of.... er.. yeah. :)) Hahah.. i wonder if this makes sense. I cant even concentrate on this anymore. hahaha.. Im so proud of drama. Im so glad ALL our hard work paid off :) And im sorry if i scared anyone by saying that there was a possibility of COP. I was scared and worried. But now I'm ecstatic.
And this is what I've been waiting for for the past four years :)
Remember, Drama loves you :)
We've come full circle.
Yes dearies.. it's a fucking GOLD! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! WE DID IT!!! :DD
HAHAHA.. The results came at the most unglamarous of times.. TWELVE O CLOCK LAST NIGHT! WHAT THE FUCK! HAHAHAHA.. ms kang msged din and buu and rae at like 12.(Which means she had the results this WHOLE TIME.) haha.. i was fast asleep.. then buu called me.. and I KNEW it was the results.. BUT I DIDNT PICK UP! TWICE! HAHAHA.. i thought it was a fucking dream, bcoz iHAVE been dreaming of that happening.. haha.. then din callled and i got so annoyed i picked up...
"hello?"
"Bi.. are you sleeping?"
"yeah...(DAWNS)..WHAT?!"
"we got a gold"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA... then we just laughed and screamed for like.. 10 mins. haha.. then i called ANNE.. who even more fantastically.. I didn't even have to say hello! she just picked up and went..
"IM NOT READY IM NOT READY IM NOT READY"
"anne..anne..ANNE! SHUT UP. WE GOT*pause* A FUCKING GOLD"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!"
HAHAHAAH...THAT went on for like..15 mins. :) HAHA.. then i called buu.. cos i like forgot that she called me.. sry buu :) HAHA
"Hello abu?"
"yes?"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!"
"HAHAHA"
HAHAHAHAHA.. oh my god! I CRIED! I LAUGHED SOOO HARD I CRIED OKAY! PROBLEM?! hahaha.. :)
then after a while.. ETHEL CALLS.. and so i put buu on hold..
"Hello abigail?"
"ethel?"
"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!"
HAHAHAHA... we laughed SO HARD that i forgot that buu was on the other line and she hung up on me!! HAHAH.. it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUUUUUUNNNNNN!!
Then i called joy and.. er... i think you get the picture... HAHAHA :))
SO imagine this. 10 to 15 girls sitting in their own homes, by themselves, SCREAMING AND LAUGHING AND JUMPING AROUND and in some cases CRYING... ALONE! HOW UNGLAM!! HAHAHA... oh my god. it was BRILIIANT! it was FANTASTIC! WHOOT! hahaha.. thanks buu and din for calling me FIRST :)) I LURRRRVVEEE YOUUU! HAHA..
wow. i wonder if all that made sense.. HAHAHA... i swear i will NEVER forget that night. after a while i called buu back again and decided to leave my room to go downstairs to get food cos i was hungry.. at one in the morning yes. HAHA.. and then.. my dad yelled at me for still being awake. while i was on the phone. HAHA.. ooops. Buu laughed at me. it was mean :( HAHA.. i had a couple of chips while we laughed and talked.. and then went to bed at one thirty.
Yesterday was actually one of the WORSE DAYS OF MY MONTH! HA. first of all.. we ALL knew the results were coming in that day so NO ONE could focus. AT ALL. and the stupid pfa office was being useless by giving us useless information. like how it was initially gonna come by a phonecall..then that became a post.. then a fax.. then a post again. and then an E MAIL.. ASSHOLES. I myself went to check with them FOUR times ALL DAY. HAHA.. During history, we had a free period and i couldnt even study. i just DIED. and then SS.. usual shit. i kept waiting for din to come with the results so everytime someone walked by i'd jerk up to check, but alas, nothing. Then recess.. god. we were all so FUSTRATED that anne even FORGOT to pay for her food. Hhaha.. then three periods of bio and i didnt do ANYTHING. it was BAD! i couldnt concentrate so i slept. WOW. haha.. then chinese class..er..yeah. after school we had physics which wasnt too bad.. then sonia and i dragged cheong to Gelare with us to erm.. study. HA. then cheong left and sonia and i had a Looooonng intense talk about EVERYTHING and how stressed we were and what not and the results and shit and that made me feel like fuck. and when we found out choir's results.. i was gonna snap RIGHT THERE. so i had ice cream for dinner. and then my tummy felt BAD.. you know that bad feeling? so i felt horrid all day. until that night :) HAHAHA.. that made my day BEAUTIFUL! :))
Today was brilliant, it was FANTASTIC, it was awesome exceptional perfect excellent fabulous ace superb terrific wonderful amazing smashing swell marvalous magnificant divine swell stupendous sensational. In a word? it was GOLD. :)
HAHAHA.. yaay. i hadnt been in such a good mood in erm. EVER. hahaha..i came to school and SCREAMED and HUGGED EVERYBODY! hahaha.. i was greeted with sonia and a whole group of drama girls crowding around. haha.. mrs joseph even saw and closed one eye and went on to yell at someone else.. HAHA.. coolness! then Anne caught me smiling to myself.. again and again. Then when they asked us to stand up, sonia anne and i cheered for oursleves! HAHA.. we had chem..NO TEST! none of us studied anyway.. HAHA.. and then we had e maths.. i fell asleep! hAHAHA.. i was really very tired i mean.. the results came in LATE.haha.. blah blah blah.. school was pretty normal..i was..of course.. in a GREAT mood and so i laughed. A LOT. During English, we didt even do ANY WORK. we were supposed to do group work and shit but we er.. didnt.. haha.. we all started throwing things at each other and what not and caused a HUGE commotion. HAHA.. oops :)
HAHA.. I'm so happy :) I'm delirious with joy. NOTHING can destroy my day. no. not even how gross and tired i look, not even when ppl stole hugs from me, not even when i got attacked by people all around me, not even when i did NOTHING during bio, not even when i had to go for tuition, not even when i think of.... er.. yeah. :)) Hahah.. i wonder if this makes sense. I cant even concentrate on this anymore. hahaha.. Im so proud of drama. Im so glad ALL our hard work paid off :) And im sorry if i scared anyone by saying that there was a possibility of COP. I was scared and worried. But now I'm ecstatic.
HAHAHA.. can you count the number of smiley faces i have used?! hhaha
And this is what I've been waiting for for the past four years :)
Remember, Drama loves you :)
We've come full circle.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Pictorial evidence
I can't believe I;m blogging again. HAHA.. I'm going on a break from the net for a while(hopefully) maybe just the weekend first. sigh. Mid years are coming and i kinda dont feel the heat. HMM..
ANyway.. yesterday was super fun. haha.. my exam went pretty okay.. first i was awoken really early coz some moron *coughethelcough*didnt lock her phone.. so i kept getting calls from her at like.. 730. idiot. haha.. then i got up and more and more well wishes came in.. thanks guys (: and theni lazed around and photo whored..by myself.. for a while and then practiced for a while. My mom came really late to fetch me and i was sooooo pissed cos she turned her phone off and i couldnt get to her.. and when she finally came i was SOOOOOOOOOOO MAD.. but i remembered negative energy and how it negative;ly affects performances so i tried to be aall happy and positive. then i went there and got my leotard and stuff..it's prreeeettyyy.. haha.. i looove my skirt.. sexiest shade of green ever. haha.. then we practiced.. ALOT. like we did the WHOLE syllabus just before we went iN! super tring. i tried to get out of it.. but to no avail! haha.. then it came time to go and FUCk. it was SOOO HOT. no not sexy hot but HOT HOT. haha.. the examiner turned on like.. only one aircon at 24degrees. AND she was wearing this long thick scarve! AND she;s from HONGKONG! ...WHAT?! haha.. after just barre work.. all four of uus were sweating like there was no tomorrow. eeeww. but didnt wanna ask for tissue cos it was kinda cool to be all wet and icky. HAHA.. hmm.. i tripped a little during my study .. sigh i hope it wasnt too obvious. i think i smiled a lot. my music is still pretty bad though. dang. that will be where i lose marks. music. fuck it. anyway... it was exhausting but oh so fun. haha..
I learnt something. i realised that SYF really taught me SOOO MUCH. like.. the negative/positive energy thing.. which REALLY helped me i think. AND it really taught me to do my best no matter what.. after that fall that was our actual SYF performance.. i remembered telling myself before we went it that i MUST do my best to redeem (sp) myself from SYF and to prove to myself that i CAN do it.. and WOW.. i think it's so great that i could break away from syf having learnt something. :D
anyway, i skipped tuition and went home to sleep instead. i realised i didnt study AT ALL yesterday. AH! Buu and i were on the phone for like an hour and sending each other really really old photos online. haha.. i look reeeallly bad. it was only last year and we all looked so much younger then.. hmmm.. strange. then at night i spent like...2 hours on the phone with sonia just laughing and dying over stupid things while i munched on animal crackers. HAHA.. i made her come back online to read my blog and tag m board.. and after she did it.. i told i was already offline. HAHA.. OOPS. oh. and if you see KASF on her tagboard.. it's ME! HAHA.. ooooooohh. i wonder what KASF stands for... HAHA (;
I'm still contemplating on going for the confirmation on saturday.. i'll basically be going to accompany sonia.. and of course support people who are being confirmed la. problem is i dont know who is. HAHA..
BLEAH. SYF results are comin in on monday. You know.. i actuallly think we've accomplished quite a lot. i mean.. ironic coming from me.. considering i cried so much, but... see.. ms chen said people walked away talking about us.. AND i really feel that i learnt so much AND u came to looove drama MORE. the only thing i really regret is not doing our best. We shall see when the results come out then.but i'm prepared for less-than-fantastic results. I've been ready for a while. Gosh i hope i don't cry. AGAIN.
Wanna see the pictures?
HAHAHAHA.. i LOOVE this.. SOOO cute I am butt 2. rae butt butt butt sonia. This is just how quirky we used to be (:
HAHAHA.. same day. it was abus birthday actually. note she's the one with the lowest sign (:
HAHAHA.. hi sonia (:
this was right after camp. erm.. we took the wrong bus. we were going from tamasek poly to tampines mall. and ended up outside my house. in EUNOS. ER.. oops.
HAHA.. vivo topshop with dode in the brown dress din in green and sonia p.in the red top(as always) haha.. doesnt that dress look so hot on me?! i bought it (:
All you SYF lovelies (: the nice shot. my posture is SLIGHTLY better here. can you spot me? I dont look so great cos i had cried like.. four times. HA.
OH MY GOD. LOOK AT THIS! i took it yesterday. i forgot to say how fascinated i was that every other peanut butter MnM that came out was orange yesterday. like what the hell. i actually poured it out to check after a while and this is what i saw. tsk tsk.
oh. Ha. i was bored yesterday. i love that hat.
OH OH OH! i love this one. i think it's so super cute. this was like super long ago. i have absolutely no recollection of it ever. my posture was still bad and i used to tie my hair SOOOO low.. but i still think it's really cute. Hmm.. Cheong was hot even then.
Erm.. i don't have anything to say.
Let's start a new countdown.
Mid years: 8 more days.
ANyway.. yesterday was super fun. haha.. my exam went pretty okay.. first i was awoken really early coz some moron *coughethelcough*didnt lock her phone.. so i kept getting calls from her at like.. 730. idiot. haha.. then i got up and more and more well wishes came in.. thanks guys (: and theni lazed around and photo whored..by myself.. for a while and then practiced for a while. My mom came really late to fetch me and i was sooooo pissed cos she turned her phone off and i couldnt get to her.. and when she finally came i was SOOOOOOOOOOO MAD.. but i remembered negative energy and how it negative;ly affects performances so i tried to be aall happy and positive. then i went there and got my leotard and stuff..it's prreeeettyyy.. haha.. i looove my skirt.. sexiest shade of green ever. haha.. then we practiced.. ALOT. like we did the WHOLE syllabus just before we went iN! super tring. i tried to get out of it.. but to no avail! haha.. then it came time to go and FUCk. it was SOOO HOT. no not sexy hot but HOT HOT. haha.. the examiner turned on like.. only one aircon at 24degrees. AND she was wearing this long thick scarve! AND she;s from HONGKONG! ...WHAT?! haha.. after just barre work.. all four of uus were sweating like there was no tomorrow. eeeww. but didnt wanna ask for tissue cos it was kinda cool to be all wet and icky. HAHA.. hmm.. i tripped a little during my study .. sigh i hope it wasnt too obvious. i think i smiled a lot. my music is still pretty bad though. dang. that will be where i lose marks. music. fuck it. anyway... it was exhausting but oh so fun. haha..
I learnt something. i realised that SYF really taught me SOOO MUCH. like.. the negative/positive energy thing.. which REALLY helped me i think. AND it really taught me to do my best no matter what.. after that fall that was our actual SYF performance.. i remembered telling myself before we went it that i MUST do my best to redeem (sp) myself from SYF and to prove to myself that i CAN do it.. and WOW.. i think it's so great that i could break away from syf having learnt something. :D
anyway, i skipped tuition and went home to sleep instead. i realised i didnt study AT ALL yesterday. AH! Buu and i were on the phone for like an hour and sending each other really really old photos online. haha.. i look reeeallly bad. it was only last year and we all looked so much younger then.. hmmm.. strange. then at night i spent like...2 hours on the phone with sonia just laughing and dying over stupid things while i munched on animal crackers. HAHA.. i made her come back online to read my blog and tag m board.. and after she did it.. i told i was already offline. HAHA.. OOPS. oh. and if you see KASF on her tagboard.. it's ME! HAHA.. ooooooohh. i wonder what KASF stands for... HAHA (;
I'm still contemplating on going for the confirmation on saturday.. i'll basically be going to accompany sonia.. and of course support people who are being confirmed la. problem is i dont know who is. HAHA..
BLEAH. SYF results are comin in on monday. You know.. i actuallly think we've accomplished quite a lot. i mean.. ironic coming from me.. considering i cried so much, but... see.. ms chen said people walked away talking about us.. AND i really feel that i learnt so much AND u came to looove drama MORE. the only thing i really regret is not doing our best. We shall see when the results come out then.but i'm prepared for less-than-fantastic results. I've been ready for a while. Gosh i hope i don't cry. AGAIN.
Wanna see the pictures?
HAHAHAHA.. i LOOVE this.. SOOO cute I am butt 2. rae butt butt butt sonia. This is just how quirky we used to be (:
HAHAHA.. same day. it was abus birthday actually. note she's the one with the lowest sign (:
HAHAHA.. hi sonia (:
this was right after camp. erm.. we took the wrong bus. we were going from tamasek poly to tampines mall. and ended up outside my house. in EUNOS. ER.. oops.
HAHA.. vivo topshop with dode in the brown dress din in green and sonia p.in the red top(as always) haha.. doesnt that dress look so hot on me?! i bought it (:
All you SYF lovelies (: the nice shot. my posture is SLIGHTLY better here. can you spot me? I dont look so great cos i had cried like.. four times. HA.
OH MY GOD. LOOK AT THIS! i took it yesterday. i forgot to say how fascinated i was that every other peanut butter MnM that came out was orange yesterday. like what the hell. i actually poured it out to check after a while and this is what i saw. tsk tsk.
oh. Ha. i was bored yesterday. i love that hat.
OH OH OH! i love this one. i think it's so super cute. this was like super long ago. i have absolutely no recollection of it ever. my posture was still bad and i used to tie my hair SOOOO low.. but i still think it's really cute. Hmm.. Cheong was hot even then.
Erm.. i don't have anything to say.
Let's start a new countdown.
Mid years: 8 more days.
Friday, April 20, 2007
Short and sweeeeet
Yes.. while everyone else is in school.. here i am BLOGGING. Ha. I'm having my damn ballet exam today so i guess it's fair. I am going through much emotional distress! I've got a mere five and a half hours left! And straight after it i have bloody tuition. BLEAH. ALSO.. we're speculating that we might get our SYF results TODAY. Scary stuff. I really don't want to miss it... Hmm.. i shll try not to think about it..
So anyway.. ethel is being a fool. Yesterday we found out(although im sure it's pretty obvious) that I have more common sense than her.. see.. we had this CME test (yeah I know..) and mrs lim said all you need is common sense.. so ethel promptly turned around and stated that she made more common sense than me! Haha.. then she screwed up the test... HAHA.. typical. (:
Yesterday.. sonia got irritated with me when i cornered the last lemon tart at starbucks and ate it. HAHA.. she clearly doesn't understand the rules of calling it. HAHAHA.. oops (:
Haha.. i also want to thank all you lovelies who have wished me well for my exam.. Joy ethel raquel buu din cheong sonia and all you people in between that i'm just a little too lazy to type(: SOOO SWEEEEET.. I LOVE YOU ALL.. er.. well maybe not sonia.. HMM..
Wow. what a useless post.
Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey.
Ballet exam:5 hours ):
So anyway.. ethel is being a fool. Yesterday we found out(although im sure it's pretty obvious) that I have more common sense than her.. see.. we had this CME test (yeah I know..) and mrs lim said all you need is common sense.. so ethel promptly turned around and stated that she made more common sense than me! Haha.. then she screwed up the test... HAHA.. typical. (:
Yesterday.. sonia got irritated with me when i cornered the last lemon tart at starbucks and ate it. HAHA.. she clearly doesn't understand the rules of calling it. HAHAHA.. oops (:
Haha.. i also want to thank all you lovelies who have wished me well for my exam.. Joy ethel raquel buu din cheong sonia and all you people in between that i'm just a little too lazy to type(: SOOO SWEEEEET.. I LOVE YOU ALL.. er.. well maybe not sonia.. HMM..
Wow. what a useless post.
Sweets for my sweet, sugar for my honey.
Ballet exam:5 hours ):
Thursday, April 19, 2007
I can't be thankful
IT'S OFFICIAL.
My life is over. Yes. There is no denying it. we got our progress cards today and i'm NOT impressed with myself. well.. actually to an extent.. but STILL!! It's pretty damn bad. i improved from last time but im not improving at a fast enough rate. and for the subjects that im deproving in.. BLEAH. dont even ASK. AND AND AND.. on top of that.. my ballet exam is in.. what...TWENTY HOURS?! FUCK. i even have to miss lessons tomorrow! OH.. and let's not forget that we still have yet to get our syf results back.. the pressure just seems to be piling on and on.. what with MORE results getting anounced..
Why does everything come at th same time? I miss having drama.. ): I really don't feel ready for the stupid fucking exam tomorrow ): AND i;m losing out to stupid stupid people ): What do I do now?!
Morning rain clouds up my window, I can't see at all
Ballet exam: 20 hours
My life is over. Yes. There is no denying it. we got our progress cards today and i'm NOT impressed with myself. well.. actually to an extent.. but STILL!! It's pretty damn bad. i improved from last time but im not improving at a fast enough rate. and for the subjects that im deproving in.. BLEAH. dont even ASK. AND AND AND.. on top of that.. my ballet exam is in.. what...TWENTY HOURS?! FUCK. i even have to miss lessons tomorrow! OH.. and let's not forget that we still have yet to get our syf results back.. the pressure just seems to be piling on and on.. what with MORE results getting anounced..
Why does everything come at th same time? I miss having drama.. ): I really don't feel ready for the stupid fucking exam tomorrow ): AND i;m losing out to stupid stupid people ): What do I do now?!
Morning rain clouds up my window, I can't see at all
Ballet exam: 20 hours
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
More food for thought
Hmm..
The past few days have been spent deep in thought, contemplating the meaning of life and the colour of jelly beans and what not :) I'm still oh-so-very confused.. and slightly disturbed and a tad fearful.
Yesterday was uber boring.. right up until pasu and i went to MPL.. it was bad. i do not enjoy that place. it irritates me beyond belief. we had a long rather unpleasant conversation. haha.. it's funny how ALL our conversations ends in us discussing lesbianism of some form. We made like.. 5 pinky-promises.. out of which i forgot like..3. OOOPS :) HAHA.. I had coffee and i blame it for making my stomach feel uncomfortable and making me feel cold...
I was really upset yesterday.. from fucked up results to unreasonable expectations, BAD coffee and out right dissing. THAT was really something else. SOO i wrote a poem! It's not that great but i think i shall post this here ANYWAY,..
The autumn leaves, they fall in pain.
It's getting darker than it should.
The roses in my heart, they pine
For your presence and how it soothes.
mmm... today was much better. My dad called the school to complain about the chinese teachers expecting me to do homework for BOTH band two and three.. I've almost successfully stopped thinking about what **** said about us and the coffee wore out. YES PASU. haha.. Din and i had half-price tuesday at Gelare and i saw an old friend of mine. (: We attempted to study as well.. we had counselling twice today. both were pretty much boring but it's kinda set me to thinking..
DAMN. I've been thinking a lot lately.
I need someone who really sees me
Ballet exam: 3 days
The past few days have been spent deep in thought, contemplating the meaning of life and the colour of jelly beans and what not :) I'm still oh-so-very confused.. and slightly disturbed and a tad fearful.
Yesterday was uber boring.. right up until pasu and i went to MPL.. it was bad. i do not enjoy that place. it irritates me beyond belief. we had a long rather unpleasant conversation. haha.. it's funny how ALL our conversations ends in us discussing lesbianism of some form. We made like.. 5 pinky-promises.. out of which i forgot like..3. OOOPS :) HAHA.. I had coffee and i blame it for making my stomach feel uncomfortable and making me feel cold...
I was really upset yesterday.. from fucked up results to unreasonable expectations, BAD coffee and out right dissing. THAT was really something else. SOO i wrote a poem! It's not that great but i think i shall post this here ANYWAY,..
The autumn leaves, they fall in pain.
It's getting darker than it should.
The roses in my heart, they pine
For your presence and how it soothes.
mmm... today was much better. My dad called the school to complain about the chinese teachers expecting me to do homework for BOTH band two and three.. I've almost successfully stopped thinking about what **** said about us and the coffee wore out. YES PASU. haha.. Din and i had half-price tuesday at Gelare and i saw an old friend of mine. (: We attempted to study as well.. we had counselling twice today. both were pretty much boring but it's kinda set me to thinking..
DAMN. I've been thinking a lot lately.
I need someone who really sees me
Ballet exam: 3 days
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Nothing but painful memories
Can you see me trying hard to be happy?
*edit*
I guess i can't avoid it.
People keep bugging me to blog. I guess I shall. We just finished 2.4.. i think i did well.. i definately passed. My plan to run the last lapse to inspirational music failed bcos my brothers pod died on me. bitch.
I've never cried this much in three days before in my life. I emoted so much I don't even have the strength to cry anymore. And.. I'm still not ready to talk about SYF without dying so.. just go to Anne's blog. but i will say..that i cried out of fear, out of pain, out of utter disappointment and the mere thought of never going back to drama again.
Which brings me to yeaterday. t'was Friday the 13th. Coolness (: HAHA.. yesterday..we went back to drama..ONE. LAST. TIME. It was scary.. but i know i must document this day. Let's see.. first, we were in the drama room after "rushing" after tutorials.. Din and I talked to the sec 1s about issues while buu settled others. Then, we got chased out by modern dance. It was kinda funny actually cos all the seniors, we were so aangry that we couldnt have our last session in the drama room.. not that we blamed modern dance, we blame the fucking PFA. they are BAAAD men. We then moved on the the study area after much(too much) complaining. Then we did warm ups(one last time) and i almost teared up.. but i controlled myself of course. :) then we played a game! We had to come up with a musical thing in groups of bye to the theme of goodbye! Yes, we basically forced them to say bye.. HAHA.. my group of Nic Shaan chin phoa and ANNE(of course) and I did this really fun collection of songs, emotion and hand actions included! It was GREAT! SOOOOOOOO FUNNY! then we performed and mel and rae took videos of it all. HA. I was actually going to cry watching buu's group..but then it got so funny i just couldn't. Then Vanjil talked to us and then we started holding hands,. and when she got to the part on how we'll be leaving.. EVERYONE started to cry... ALL the seniors quite a number of juniors actually. hhmm.,, justin sat awkwardly as we laughed and cried and hugged each other. Then we watched the Detention skit.. erm.. yeah. After that.. Justin started talking to us about us leaving and all that jazz :) and we got fogged out! HAHA.. they started fogging downstairs and we didnt want to die.. so we moved(again) to the hall. it was about 6.30 at that time so we gathered.. and initiTED the new committee members.. YAAAYYYY. i screamed and cheered SOOOO much for EVERYYYONE! Yes, miss JOY.. avoiding my gaze.. tsk tsk. HAHA.. I actually like FORGOT who was going to be my successor.. HAHA.. sorry la ROSIE.. i givng you money leh! HAHA.. Then we stayed til like 730 just talking to the new committee until we were chased out cos SOME IDIOT *coughrosiecough* kept her mom waiting for like OVER AN HOUR! Moron la. In the end joy sonia din and i went to starbucksfor a congratulatory dinner :) Some sec 5 girl whispered (very loudly) that she diddnt like me.. wow.i like..so care. AHA. i had a lemon tart :) AND u got a 30cents discount. Sonia was being racist. Joy was being emo anf d Din was being din.
So that was it. that was my last day of drama. EVER. I doubt i wilL EVER forget that day. Like the day I got initiated into the committee last year . i will NEVER forget that day either. In the ..4 hours yesterday.. i completely forgot my emotional disarray and just enjoyed myself in what was truely the BEST drama session i EVER had. that is..much llike the memories..somthing i will cherish forever. But i know i mustn't cry anymore.. i must be happy.. happy that i have had the oppurtunity to experience the wonder that is SAC drama, happy thinking of all the great times i've had.. happy that i got to know such wonderful people.. happy to know that i didnt go through all that i did for nothing.. and most importantly happy that i will always have the memories :)
This was from our fantabulous farewell party for Fran's batch. We deserve a FANTASTIC party too.. right Randi?!
SEXXXYYY. This was Syf camp :)
STICKS. :) Miss Kang called us the three hearts that day. HAHA..
SYF day itself.. ran to the chapel to take photos. Ihave like the worse posture in the world. Can you see me?
AND of course. our darling NEW president...
JOY! YAY. I apologise if i put you through much emotional stress and tears but i think you know i lubx euxxx.. HAHA :)
Do your best ok.. Be strong :) And you better keep your promise to me.
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
*edit*
I guess i can't avoid it.
People keep bugging me to blog. I guess I shall. We just finished 2.4.. i think i did well.. i definately passed. My plan to run the last lapse to inspirational music failed bcos my brothers pod died on me. bitch.
I've never cried this much in three days before in my life. I emoted so much I don't even have the strength to cry anymore. And.. I'm still not ready to talk about SYF without dying so.. just go to Anne's blog. but i will say..that i cried out of fear, out of pain, out of utter disappointment and the mere thought of never going back to drama again.
Which brings me to yeaterday. t'was Friday the 13th. Coolness (: HAHA.. yesterday..we went back to drama..ONE. LAST. TIME. It was scary.. but i know i must document this day. Let's see.. first, we were in the drama room after "rushing" after tutorials.. Din and I talked to the sec 1s about issues while buu settled others. Then, we got chased out by modern dance. It was kinda funny actually cos all the seniors, we were so aangry that we couldnt have our last session in the drama room.. not that we blamed modern dance, we blame the fucking PFA. they are BAAAD men. We then moved on the the study area after much(too much) complaining. Then we did warm ups(one last time) and i almost teared up.. but i controlled myself of course. :) then we played a game! We had to come up with a musical thing in groups of bye to the theme of goodbye! Yes, we basically forced them to say bye.. HAHA.. my group of Nic Shaan chin phoa and ANNE(of course) and I did this really fun collection of songs, emotion and hand actions included! It was GREAT! SOOOOOOOO FUNNY! then we performed and mel and rae took videos of it all. HA. I was actually going to cry watching buu's group..but then it got so funny i just couldn't. Then Vanjil talked to us and then we started holding hands,. and when she got to the part on how we'll be leaving.. EVERYONE started to cry... ALL the seniors quite a number of juniors actually. hhmm.,, justin sat awkwardly as we laughed and cried and hugged each other. Then we watched the Detention skit.. erm.. yeah. After that.. Justin started talking to us about us leaving and all that jazz :) and we got fogged out! HAHA.. they started fogging downstairs and we didnt want to die.. so we moved(again) to the hall. it was about 6.30 at that time so we gathered.. and initiTED the new committee members.. YAAAYYYY. i screamed and cheered SOOOO much for EVERYYYONE! Yes, miss JOY.. avoiding my gaze.. tsk tsk. HAHA.. I actually like FORGOT who was going to be my successor.. HAHA.. sorry la ROSIE.. i givng you money leh! HAHA.. Then we stayed til like 730 just talking to the new committee until we were chased out cos SOME IDIOT *coughrosiecough* kept her mom waiting for like OVER AN HOUR! Moron la. In the end joy sonia din and i went to starbucksfor a congratulatory dinner :) Some sec 5 girl whispered (very loudly) that she diddnt like me.. wow.i like..so care. AHA. i had a lemon tart :) AND u got a 30cents discount. Sonia was being racist. Joy was being emo anf d Din was being din.
So that was it. that was my last day of drama. EVER. I doubt i wilL EVER forget that day. Like the day I got initiated into the committee last year . i will NEVER forget that day either. In the ..4 hours yesterday.. i completely forgot my emotional disarray and just enjoyed myself in what was truely the BEST drama session i EVER had. that is..much llike the memories..somthing i will cherish forever. But i know i mustn't cry anymore.. i must be happy.. happy that i have had the oppurtunity to experience the wonder that is SAC drama, happy thinking of all the great times i've had.. happy that i got to know such wonderful people.. happy to know that i didnt go through all that i did for nothing.. and most importantly happy that i will always have the memories :)
This was from our fantabulous farewell party for Fran's batch. We deserve a FANTASTIC party too.. right Randi?!
SEXXXYYY. This was Syf camp :)
STICKS. :) Miss Kang called us the three hearts that day. HAHA..
SYF day itself.. ran to the chapel to take photos. Ihave like the worse posture in the world. Can you see me?
AND of course. our darling NEW president...
JOY! YAY. I apologise if i put you through much emotional stress and tears but i think you know i lubx euxxx.. HAHA :)
Do your best ok.. Be strong :) And you better keep your promise to me.
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
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