That's just what sluts do

It never ever ends.

I've never felt more like shit in my entire life. Every single fucking time I turn arond there's something new for me to handle. The worse part is I have to do this all my fucking self and it's so much harder than I can ever imagine. This is insane. I've never felt so betrayed, so disgusted, so incredibly angry and so fucking terrified all at once. I've never had so many thoughts scream in my head. I've never needed someone, anyone this fucking badly before. I am tired, I am emotional, I am tolled. Perched so fucking percariously on the edge that if you add just one more issue on my plate, I might just fall off. The truth is I lied, I can't fucking handle this.

Fuck this stupid post.

Sitting prettily in my mailbox

I feel the gangster blood.

So it has been a rather eventful and definitely very expensive week. School's barely been out for long and I've already blown a significant amount of money on shopping alone. Totally typica(: Haha. I've actually spent four consecutive days with the sonia of the pee this week. That might just be four too many(: HAHA. Monday; a failed surprise with sonia and sonia. Tuesday; Din Sonia and I. Wednesday; a myraid of people that also included Sonia. Thursday; Din then Sonia then Pau. And Friday; the Chew. Dang.

So in between everything (all with just one cup of coffee a day I might add), I've noticed how funny it is that so much has changed. And I don't even mean it in an annoyingly emo way, but in a it's-funny-how-life-turns-out kinda way. So much changes in such a short period of time. How we act, what we talk about, the things we laugh about, how we feel. I guess that's why they call it progress. And I'm not even talking about a year ago or something. So much has changed in the past month(and a couple weeks) alone. Don't even get me started on two months ago, or even since December. I have gained things, lost things, regretted things, took a chance on things, felt (quite a selection of) things, opened up on things and given up on things. It's funny how life turns out I guess. Heh.

On the somewhat duller side, I'm missing all my neds like crazy. Especially you Buu):

I am so spoilt(:

You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lucky
Underneath it all

The hardest button to unbutton

School's out!(:

Well, just till April anyway.

Two months of my life pretty much wasted. Haha. Story of my bloody life. Oh well. No more waking up at eight, no more skipping retarded lectures, no more Cheers, no more one dollar coffee, no more falling asleep in boring lectures, no more presentations, no more breaks, no more chicken or fish, no more rainy days, no more picking me up from school, no more school being so incredibly quiet, no more unfinished lunches(HA), no more waiting at the mushroom, no more useless classes. Well, not till April anyway. HAHAHA(:

So many moons that we have seen
Stumbling back next to me
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better

I'm kinda showing off for his full attention

These thoughts are enough to kill me, you know that?

I've been waiting patiently for him to come and get it

I wonder if he knows that he can say it and I'm with it

I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning

Catch this opportunity so you and me could feel it

I guess we're drifting

It sure seems that way.



Thanks Pau for having a random party just cos you could! Haha. The holidays are coming to an end for everyone in JC and secondary school, so it's back to life without me. I on the contrary, can practically taste my freedom. Yes, the DPA program thing is ending soooon!(((: Then it's a month of nothing-ness til I actually begin school. Story of my life-.- HAHA. So yes, Thursday was fun! After tiring and very wet ventures for hokkien mee(which was later redered useless anyway) we ended up at Pau's where there was a ton of dessert, a home-made barbaque and some fantastic alcoholic mixes. Spent the whole night alternating between eating, drinking, talking, eating, dancing, eating, chilling, cam-whoring, eating, food-fighting..and eating. Haha. It's actually kinda funny seeing how far we've come. Heh(:



On the other hand, I've completely and utterly given up. Oh well. I've still got the rest of you(: I am as Chinese as they comeYes, don't hi-five the enemy!(:

ATTACK(:

I tried.

The walls start breathing,
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow

Alcohol, Anniversary and Stitches

Just so the stars will always shine for you<3

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

Can't live, can't breathe with no air

It's how I feel whenever you ain't there

It's no air, no air

Got me out here in the water so deep

Tell me how you gonna be without me

If you ain't here, I just can't breathe

I am the damn rebound girl

I really need a break.

Well, I've gotta wait a couple more weeks til I'm free from school for a while. Then actual school starts and it's pretty much downhill from there. Heh. Life. The week's been pretty much alright though. Caught up with quite a number of people so I'm pretty happy with that(: No pau, the serangoon vaccuum is not an excuse! Haha. I'm having such a lazy bumming around day, then again what's new really. I guess I'm still really tired from yesterday. Buu and Din crashed my school with donuts and push pops and we hung out with Pasu and Harms, pooled, ran around and died. Then sonia and I soup-ed and over to Buu's house we went where we really really died.






I think I've come to a point, where I'm just letting everything sit. And I feel the detachment.Yeah, I definitely overcomplicate things.




And so I found a state of mind
Where I could be speechless
I had to try it for a while
To figure out this feeling
This felt so right
Pull me upside
Down to a place where you've been waiting
And how am I supposed to tell you how I feel?
I need oxygen

It's easy to like you a lot in a short period of time

I do enjoy a variety of coffee, but I think I'm sticking to my own thank you very much.

It's Wednesday already. Damn, time seems to be moving real fast. Soon it'll be March holidays for y'all in JC and I'll still be in school(fuck it) Oh and Pau, I'm supposed to convince you to have a random party some time next week! Haha. Come on Pau, why the hell not(: Heh. School discovery is pretty damn lame, in fact I'm supposed to be in class right about..now. But I'm not(: OOPS(:



A couple of days ago Sonia and I caught up with Cheong over at siglap. And it was really nice, talking sharing and laughing over food and then coffee(some more free than others) It's really been a while since it's just been the three of us and it was awesome. I think we've gotta do it more often then just once in 4 monthes okay?(:

Memories seem like so long ago, time always kills the pain

I realised that I don't actually have much to blog about. HAHA. I guess Din is right; My life = school







Passes things get more comfortable
Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool

Sunflower and free coffee on a rainy Sunday(:

You make me smile(:

So my initial plan was to blog about how I absolutely adore lazy Sundays(especially those that end of a fantastic week), where I bum around at home alone, lying on my floor, reading a magazine, listening to good music, fiddling with my fingers and listening to the rain falling on the rooftops. And how Wednesday was a fantastic day cos I had way too much coffee and loved every drop of it. And that Thursday was brilliant too cos there wasn't any school and I caught up with the Chew over Calamari, and how Din got happy with school. And how Friday really just blew my mind, in more ways than one. And despite a couple of fucked up incidents that peppered my week, it probably was the best week of the year.



But instead, I find myself telling you about how I was just randomly baking today, singing to myself and filling up my little chocolate cups of joy when my mother ran into the kitchen yelling and asking where there were two strange people hanging around outside our door. And so in confusion and a panicked frenzy I ran up to my room and had like 7 missed calls. So I put some real clothes on and ran back downstairs. And I open the door(My mother had let them in) and I am greeted by a pleasant spray of rain water and two drenched morons cowering in the rain, bearing flowers and cold coffee((((: HAHAHAHHA(: Sigh, gotta love them fucking idiots(:



So there went my lovely queit Sunday. Instead it was filled with laughter, oogling and reminiscing and loveeee((:

Let me light up the sky<3

We should get jerseys cause we make a good team

But yours would look better than mine,

Cause you're outta my league

And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday

I spend with you is the new best day of my life

Everyone watching us just turns away with disgust

In Jealously, they can see that we've got it going on(: