Were you jealous?

Honestly, I can be so fucking stupid.


Well obviously it was grad night yesterday. After all that hype and shit, we all got so sick of it and just wanted to get it over and done with. The school's a motherfucking bitch. Firstly, the incredibly disorganised Primary school gathering, the lies that dress pants were accepted, the fucktard lack of air-conditioning, the incredible (lack of) decorations and of course the boring as hell ceremony. Oh. I went in my big Foof. Initially, when I left my house in my hundred dollar shoes, I was fearing that I might be too formal, and when I arrived in school... Well.. Hmm. HAHA.. It was quite a show actually.. Tons of people were so damn dressed up, professional make-up, dolled up hair and glitter and what not. Oh. I gave up caring after a while, and Thank goodnesss too, co sit really would just have melted in the retarded heat. Oh, and the fans KILLED my hair. Fuck it.



So, being the incredibly cranky fool that I was, Ashrina and I spent the whole time complaining and criticising people. HAHA. I sat through the whole crap to go up on stage for like, seven seconds. Anywho, after they finally released us, we stomped off to do the usual cam whoring stuff. Hmm.. Yeah, I know I was being an asshole. So.


The party itself was fuck awesome. There were two live bands and they did cover songs. And it wasn't too bad, well, it hardly ever is with this bunch right? Haha.. The lighting and stuff was pretty alright and there was a smoke machine to create an aura..of coolness. HAHAHA. Ew. We were just partying and dancing and jumping away like we owned the place. Hee. Yeah, it got pretty gross after a while. Sweat soaked hair stuck to our faces, blister-infested feet, bad faces, tantrums thrown, screaming songs, laughing and just enoying ourselves. I was still being an asshole, or trying anyway. Hee. I honestly thought I didn't give a fuck. HAHA. Anywho, after a while, Rae sonia and I created our own party and danced while the boring prom queen thing was going on. T'was hilarious(: Haha. It must have been quite a sight, we tried to form a fake ass grind-line(Im guessing this sounds odd) while random jocks shook their heads at us. HAHAHA. We're such fucktards and I love it(:



Haha. So eventually we had to leave and head to our hotel, Pan Pacific. Flipping jocks left their stuff in sonia's bag. Idiots. So we got to the hotel, crashed, burned, and died. Absolutely DIED. And so here I am now, feeling very very disoriented, cranky, and incredibly vulnerable. Think we've all learnt our lesson and the amount at the Abnia party will be greatly reduced. Trust me it's for the best. Haha.



Pictures!










Doesn't everyone just look stunning? Haha




















Purple Pau!(:



















Din-sha! Excuse me you, you weren't even in white! FOOL! HAHA















Haha. Grab and Go!















Hehe. Pau got cranky(:
















Oops(:

AAAWWWWW(:

E-DOD

Rah oh Rah

Hahaha. I look like I'm nursing a cold!

I'm barely even in this! And I look strangely yellow.




















Oh dear me.














EW EW EW. NO ONE looks good. HAHAHAH. Post-party. we were this tired.

















oh. I hate flash





















The morning after.


I never knew I felt that way, and it's scaring the fuck out of me.



This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

Don't know why I still care

I'm gonna miss you like a child misses her blanket,

But I've gotta get a move on with my life

Coffee Kills, Bitch

Joy. You are a failure.


Hahaha.. Teddy bear attempts are futile(: So anywhos, days are going by post-Os quicker than I thought.. Finally everyone is officially free from the evil wrath that is exams and life has resumed to the hectic shopping and coffee days. HEE(:


Hmm.. So Monday was hanging out with Din and all her special friends(: HAhaha.. Men in white? OH! Hahaha.. Starbucks is fab at night, Coffee.. not so much. Hahaha.


Tuesday, which was yesterday, was potentially the most embarrassing day of my life, and trust me, I had many. HAHa. First off, Ethel and I tried to be cool by appearing for Grad Night rehearsals sans School uniform. Yes, we came in our going out clothes. And after realising that noone, and I repeat, NO ONE else was not in school U, We freaked out and died. And after about twenty minutes of freaking out and apprehensiom, we, for some strange reason, mustered the courage to walk into the school hall. And..well.. we all saw what happened.. Everyone, and just to be clear, EVERYONE turned and stared at us and luaghed and made faces and judged. HAHAHA.. We were trying desperately to hide our faces and Mr Hamzah totally made it worse! Do i LOOK like I'm from China? HAHAHAHA...


So I got into other random trouble as well(Should have sen my face when the dude came up to me and yanked me out) regarding some incriminating photo I have never seen. Anywho, Joseph saw us and DIED and sent us home. HA. So I went to school for nothing. And of course our dearest Ethel left her bag in the hall so we had to wait in the hot hot heat for the damn rehearsal to end. Haha. We died and went out to get ice-cream(: HA!


So after this whole big sweaty fuss, Pau Sonia and I went to do our hair. Haha.. Yeah you have to wait til Friday to see it. Pau's purple! So anyway, Rah Din Pau and I went to Laguna for a post-Os Feast. Totally awesome. Truth or Dare with this bunch? HEE(:Ha. oh. Just for the record, my parents HATE my hair, like with a passion. Obviously they have something against having a side swept thing. Likened me to my brother. Like.. That's some fucking insult I tells ya. And I know I'm gonna be taking shit for it forever, just you watch. They're fucktards who think that I will turn out like my brother because of my hair. Which by the way does NOT resemble his at ALL. Just thinking about it is fucking pissing me off. Oh and by the way, I love my new hair. So THERE.


Ha. I collected my skirt today. And finally pieced my grad night outfit together. Frankly, I'm getting sick of it all. It's getting me in a lot of trouble and causing me tons of fuss. I heart heart heart my shoes.. Haha. Aldo pulled through after all!Haha. so again you have to wait til Friday(:


Oh... Just a sneak peek(:





























Ew Rae..EW

















Uh? I'm the third one, can you tell?















New hair. New bag. Same face(:





















Haha. Totally random. But yummy(:


I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the tide comes I'd take you away

I KNOW it's not enough

If something was broken,

Would you fix it,

Or throw it away?

Cause the world will turn if you're ready or not (:

It's always too little too late

I guess I'll be blogging a lot more from now on.



I realise that I haven't really done much shopping.. just a lot of frowning and calculating and wanting. HAHA. No, not enjoying having limited cash. Today I actually thought of getting a job, which is really the last thing I wanna do. Mostly cos I'm a lazy fart really. Haha.. I really hope Hong Kong has good stuff. Everything goes on my Daddy's credit card. HEE(:



Haha. If you haven't already heard, they didn't have the smexy red heels in my size at Aldo. The ones that I wanted for Grad Night. Fuck these tiny feet. I was this close to them... *WHINES ): Hahaha. you should have totally seen how my face fell when they told me it wasn't available in my size.. haha, I would have paid to see that. So now I'm scouting for a new pair of red pointy pumps. Dragged my whole family out to Town just now just for me. Of course(: Hahaha. It was quite funny. I almost got a pair of Nine Wests. ALMOST(: HAHAHA.. Oh wells. Thank Goodness for Guess(: I'm heading down to Raffles tomorrow to get them in my size. See! People are always complaing about having big feet and they don't realise that small feet are just as inconvinient! Hahah.. I feel like such a bimbo(:




Yesterday, Pau was rejected by society so I took pity on her and we went swimming(: HEE. It was.. futile. We had to use the kinda-deep-yet-not-quite pool cos well.. I can't really swim. Hahah. And because it was just overflooded with kids, we spent about a pathetic 45 minutes floating around and sometimes standing, only to leave cos it was freezing. We saw a rainbow though! Like an actual one! Then we headed to Starbucks and not studied! HAHAHA(: Talked and talked and suddenly it was ten.. Pau had two cups of coffee. Haha.. Guess you learn something new everyday(:



My life is so boring now.




































Mango














Zara






















Can't wait(:





















So last night I lay in bed, filled with comtempt and caffiene. Thinking about everything, about the year, about my failures, my ignorance, about you and about me. And I realised, if I could, I would. I would take it all back, everything I ever said, everything you ever said and every little fucking thing in between. And I would take it, and put it in a special little box. And then, I would throw it so fucking far away that it would never ever cross my mind again(:



Fuck obligations.



Thunder only happens when its raining
Players only love you when theyre playing
Women, they will come and they will go
When the rain washes you clean.. you'll know

Don't they always?

Lean, Mean and Oh my god(:



So I been free for about 3 days now. Vivo-d with Din, Rah, Pau and Buu after ALL EXAMS. It was funny stuff. Dined at Thai Express and then finally enjoyed my long-waited warm chocolate cake at Bakerzin. Yummy(: Got home really really late and drank my Os aways. HEE(:


Next day was Vivo again with the anti-bio chicks + Max. Haha. So that's Ethel, Cheong, Weelyn, Deborah + Max. It was messy. Really. Like the failure of the train jump-in. Haha.. Apparently it doesn't work with six people at four different stops, with me at the LAST one. Of course. I was absolutely exhausted the whole day though. But it was funny(: Like the soup ordeal at Sushi Tei. Since Weelyn was the only one who commanded respect, and since she found a tiny little fly in the steamboat soup thing, she complained after we were about three-quarters through.. So we got a whole new pot. And we must have looked really suspicious too cos when Wee was telling the waiter, the rest of us were hiding our face and giggling. HAHA. Not to mention, she continued eating out of the pot after we told them anyway. Haha. FOOL(:


Anwywho, shopping wasn't that fantastic. Sorely disappointed. It was all winter-y stuff. Meah. Oh yeah. We saw some dumb fuck movie. GAY plan. Eight bucks wasted. Debs and I fell asleep. Weelyn and Cheong didn't know who the Rock was. They still don't. Even after the movie. Hahaha. Typical. Haha.. I'm really gonna miss them. I hope we get together again soon!



Today was Chinatown. AND I packed my room. KINDA. haha. I tried. Ordered my prom Night Foof thing. I hope it turns out okay... Collecting it nest Wednesday. It's cutting kinda close. I really REALLY hopes it turns out well. I'm getting so damn sick of Grad Night.


Oh me oh my. I hate that it hasn't hit me yet that I'm free, that I no longer have to study, that I never have to go back to school, that I start Poly next year...that I'm on holiday. It just feels so.. weird. Dammit.
















Haha. Still looks good on paper though(:























It was a dare ok. A DARE.

















It's a fire I can't put out














So all we do is wait






























All day, everyday(:
















No, I don't get it.



















Oh if only I had 99 bucks to spare..



















Sigh. I settled for a cheaper rip-off from Chinatown




















This is what FOOF means! 'cept in white.















Honey, I could stare all day.
Yeah, I know it's wrong.


And I feel a weakness coming on
Never felt so good to be so wrong
Had my heart on lockdown
And then you turned me around
I'm feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It's not complicated
I was so jaded

And you caught me off guard
Now I'm running and screaming

O for Ouch

You hear that?
















IT'S OVVVEEERRRRRR!!!! (((((:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
:DDDDDDDDD















It's absolute seeexxxxx (:


Now if you excuse me, I have a date((:

Working so hard every night and day,
And now we get to pay back.
Trying so hard saving up the paper,
Now we get to lay back