Don't let me fall asleep,

Feeling empty again.

Just face it, don't pretend

I guess we can't keep doing things with our eyes shut. Can't keep pretending nothing's wrong. Can't keep acting like we know where we're going. Can't keep breaking our backs over this unnecessary burden. Can't keep up with the momentum. Can't pretend I'm not drowning. Can't pretend we're not already alone. Can't pretend we have been kind. Can't pretend we have been keen either. Can't pretend their words don't matter. Can't pretend it's getting any easier. Can't pretend I don't need the high. Can't pretend our patience is running thin. Can't pretend the spark is fading. Can't pretend we won't explode at each other. Can't pretend it's not tolling and boring. Can't pretend we don't hate each other. Can't pretend we don't know it's not worth it. Can't pretend we know what we're doing. Can't pretend that this isn't it. Can't pretend that this doesn't hurt, because it really really does.

I didn't hear you leave,

I wonder how am I still here.

Hush little baby, don't you cry

Welcome back, motherfuckers.

Confess all the faith that I had in you.

There are just some things that should be left unsaid

Aaah where to even begin. Instability: the biggest understatement ever. Above was the day Sonia and I realized we were both horrible people, and didn't care. Then Halloween rolled by; last minute planning and genuine excitement. And surprisingly enough, it turned out to be a pretty spectacular night. Though I wished we were all actually in the same club. Hurr. This is not a fucking competition, mofos. And even more surprising, school isn't making me want to shoot myself in the head every second of the day, which is new. Hawhaw. Everything else seems to be flitting away way too easily. Family is a whole other level all together. This is killing me more than you even know. I refuse to accept anything as my fault. Drifts lead to nothing but decline and deterioration. Acting like I care leads to more repulsion. I'm just going with the fucking flow.

We're the new face of failure.

a year ago

I find it kinda funny,

I find it kinda sad.