stay gone, stay clean

Old yellow bricks, love's a risk 

Quite the little escapoligist 

Looked so miffed, when you wish 

For a thousand places better than this

you don't know what it means to win

never going back again

I don't want to know the reasons why

 Love keeps right on walking down the line 

I don't want to stand between you and love 

Honey, I just want you to feel fine

jai guru deva om

I literally just spent the last like two hours trying to fix fake nails on, which explains that last photo. I must be like, the worst girl ever. I truly admire how these Japanese girls do it with their amazing hair and skin and make up and nails. It's damn inspiring. I wish I could cut my hair, I think I could do much more if I could shape my damn fringe. So far, I really feel like my make up has improved drastically. Plus, I actually dress like a girl now so there's that. Typing with this is so difficult. It's currently exams week in Sophia.. not that I give a fuck about school here. Or school anywhere. In spite of how I first felt when I first got dropped from Jappo class, I'm really grateful for the decision because 1) fuck morning classes 2) fuck going to school everyday 3) I never would've taken philosophy if not, and I really enjoyed that class, even if I never want to hear the phrase "What Descartes is doing with his meditations is..." again. School here is honestly amazing though. I've met so many interesting people from all over the world. I couldn't have even dreamed of how amazing coming to school in Sophia would be. Although last year's sheltered experience in Birmingham will always be close to my heart, coming to Tokyo and opening up to the world and to these new places and experience has been nothing short of amazing. Everybody's leaving for home next week and although I'm sad to see them go, knowing I'll actually probably never see them again, I'm also excited to see my family and do some travelling. Travelling in Japan is disgustingly expensive though, so I don't think I'm going to be able to see everything that I wanted to. The great thing is, if things continue looking up for us, Japan is always an option for future holidays. It's 4am now and the sun is already up. I don't know why I'm being this reflective and nostalgic when I wouldn't be leaving for a little over a month (D:). I guess I could  never stop being extremely fucking grateful for everything that I have.


Two of us riding nowhere,

Spending someone's hard earned pay

two of us going nowhere

pills enough to make me ill,

cash enough to make me well

quick, sick rampage

the world at my feet

la fee verte

The above feels like so long ago. I haven't really been out out of Tokyo for the longest time, only occasionally scaling mountains. Most of our time is divided between school (lol joking), sleeping, exploring Tokyo, getting drunk at izakayas with new friends and eating everything we can and should eat. I love it here so much I truly never want to leave. It's not that I hate my life at home, because I probably love it almost as much. I just want to run run run run awaaaayyyy. I guess you can say some of the reason I'm obsessed with the Beatles is because it allows me to forget for a while. I hate this nagging feeling of homesickness.. for a place I still call home. The truth is, I can't go home and face the future, face the facts, but more importantly, to face the lies. With the exception of typhoons and earthquakes and tsunamis and shiz, I am perfectly happy where I am right now. Honestly.