sacrilege

girl vs woman

well, I believed it all

I've been missing because life has been very kind.

like a sister and a brother

> It's been a while since I've had the time.. for anything, really. In a surprising turn of events, a good bulk of my weekdays are stolen by after school activities, being driven around and rolling around in bed. It functions in a way where it's truly all or nothing. Right now, I'm only being spared time because for some reason I am being ignored. The truth is, this means next to nothing because you are simply that kind of person who "just has it in them" and I am the kind of person that never sheds the paranoia. And vice versa, I'm sure. But then again I'm just too prideful to open my mouth and you're too much of a small child to ever man up. But enough about that. This week has seen many nights sitting on floors and (finally) having real conversations with old friends. The best was possibly the night we spent on the carpet, smoking and regaling tales of our overseas adventures with one of my favourites. Another asian adventure is coming up on the horizon and I am both excited and hesitant. On one hand, #asia. But on the other, well, #commitmentissues. Both me and you, brah. The truth is I already know how this will end.. because this will end. I feel stupid trying to put this into words because it feels like I'm putting effort and or giving a damn. When I really couldn't. Or shouldn't.


So stuck up,
I wish he'd stick it to me

2014

a game of chase

All sorts of horrible feels which I can only pretend is PMS #life. So many lost nights spent looking out windows, wondering just what exactly happens at night. I'm too comfortable here. The truth is I really want out. It's so clear to me what I know and what I feel, or well, what I don't feel. My life is simply about swinging to the nearest tree. Unfortunately, because I am still psychotic and what not, I'm really way too invested in this shit. I've spent way too long chillin' in the wrong tree. I really hate being this person. I hate being disappointed and expecting things and wanting more and generally not having what I want, exactly the way I want it. I don't really know what I'm saying, I just know that I actually really hate this situation, and actually, always have. This whole thing is an extremely messy train wreck just fucking waiting to happen. There's a time bomb that's waiting to go off, duration unknown. The thing is I want it to explode as badly as I want it to diffuse and just work. This is stupid. There's nothing else to say except that this is stupid.


Players only love you 
when they're playing

a man of simple pleasures

somewhere down the road, we're gonna look back and wish that we could bring it back to times like these