he's a real nowhere man

Unfortunately, the past has the bear the brunt in order to reach the fucking present.

will she still believe it when he's dead?

The above was the beginning for the three cities, ten days plan that started with resentment but ended with a cold sadness that it was finally done. This trip allowed me to 1) appreciate the luxuries of my life when I have them 2) take some time off to travel and explore without having to worry about money 3) learn what I truly want now 4) remind me about you. Perhaps the best part of it all was having the chance to run the fuck away from the realities of my mistakes. I wanted to type life but I can't do that in all honesty. The only flaw in the grand plan of escaping from the cutting glare of love is that I will always come back to this.

a day in the life

well I'm fucking sorry but

Nothing Gold Can Stay

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf,
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day
Nothing gold can stay. 
- Robert Frost

so eden sank to grief

like a sick domestic abuser

sorry.

you don't need tricks

everything feels so fucking wrong